Love Me (Lesbian Story)

Don't Forget

Demi's POV
I feel so relaxed. Everything is going smoothly and I'm not stressed.

Shit who am I kidding. These past weeks without Maiya or Izabella were torture. I can't handle it. I miss them like hell and I've been crying myself to sleep holding our picture almost every night. The nights that I don't its because I don't sleep, but my days always end with me crying because I'm thinking about them. I always go to Maiya's contact to call her because I want to hear her voice but I can't bring myself to do it. What if she ignores my call? What if she yells at me? What if she wants nothing to do with me anymore? I couldn't handle the pain I'd feel if she found someone new. And what if I never see her or my little Bella again? I want to be able to see her grow up. I want to see her first day of school. I want to be there for her when she's sad. I want to see her go to prom and on her first date.

I sigh as my phone rings.
"Hello," I say sounding so dreary.
"Hey Demi how's it goin?" I heard his familiar voice.
"Ew Joe. What the fuck do you want? How did you get my number?" He chuckled as I sighed in frustration.
"Oh Demi. I just wanted to know if you and your hot girlfriend are still together." He chuckled again.
"Why do you care? She's doesn't like you." I can feel my face heating up.
"Oh that's not important. I just thought that you'd want to know that I saw her kissing some girl in New York. Its all over the news." I can almost see him looking at his fingernails with a smug look on his face. I tried to contain the sob that escaped my lips as i angrily hung up. I know that she technically isn't mine anymore, thanks to me, but it still hurts to know that she moved on so fast. I still love her. I just wanted her to realize that she was wrong and that she was hurting me emotionally. This only makes things worse. I picked up the phone and dialed my mom's number.
"Hey Demi. What's up honey?" I heard her sincere voice ask.
"I can't do it. I miss her like crazy. I'm so alone. Can I come home for a little while? Please?" I begged crying.
"Demi, love of course you can come home. Stay as long as you want." Though she sighed, I could tell she was smiling.
"Thank you so much. I'll be there soon. I love you." I sniffled.
"I love you too Demi. See ya soon."

I started packing all my necessities.
I was looking through my stuff to see if I had forgotten anything and I saw a sweatshirt that Maiya had left here. I grabbed it and threw it on. I wonder if she meant to leave this. After making sure I got everything I left. I sat in my car and turned up the radio to drown out my thoughts. Some new song came on the radio called Roger Rabbit. It thought sounded like Maiya but she hates singing for any reason. I think I just miss her too much. She's everywhere around me. I can't get her out of my head.
Once I arrived at my parent's house I said hi to everyone and went upstairs to my room so they wouldn't question me. I heard a knock at the door.
"Please just give me some time. I'll tell you guys all about it later. Just please let me be." I groaned.
"Demi? Its Maddie. Can I please talk to you. Or I mean we can talk later if um that's uh better. For you." I heard Maddie say as she started backing away from the door.
"No no Maddie. Come here." I said getting up to open the door. As soon as I opened it I threw my arms around her and just held her.
"I've missed you so much baby girl." I said into her shoulder as she's grown taller than me now.
"I missed you too Dems." She sighed.
I sat on my bed while she laid down and out her head in my lap. I brushed her hair with my fingers. I miss Bella.
"I really miss having you around. Its been a while." I said.
"Yeah..." she responded. We sat in a confortable silence.
"What's wrong Madison? I know something is bothering you. Just rant if you need to." I sighed. I've been doing a lot of that lately.
"Nothing Demi I'm fine. I just wanted to spend time with you. I missed you." She said in a frustrated voice. I was a bit taken aback so I just sat there. I laid down next to Maddie and held her.
"Demi I know I shouldn't say this because I shouldn't feel this way and it's very difficult to handle and I-" she rambled on trying to avoid what she had started saying.
"Madison stop trying to beat around the bush. Just say it." I said with a rough tone in my voice.
"Ifeellikeimbeingjudgedbyeveryone. Itmakesmefeelselfconscious." She said so fast it sounded like all one word.
"Maddie. Slow down. I couldn't understand a word you said." I chuckled.
"That was my point." She muttered.
"I just feel like I'm being judged all the time with everything that I do. And it makes me feel self-conscious." She said clearly this time. I just stopped. I don't want her to feel this way. I don't want anyone to feel that way.
"Madison...you know that no one else's opinion about you matters right? So even if they did judge you-which there might be some haters cuz everyone has them- it shouldn't matter to you anyway. The only things that people say or think that actually matter are the positive things about you. Nothing else is important. The negative people don't matter." I said looking her in the eyes. I saw the tears in her eyes as she hugged me.
"I love you so much Demi. I really needed you here." Maddie said as she wiped her eyes and nose.
"I wish I would've just lived here with you guys. Life would've been easier and better." I sighed. Again.
"Where's Maiya?" Maddie asked as she raised her head.
"Umm...well...we kinda had some issues and I told her we should take a break and so she left with Izabella without much of a fight." I responded with a shrug.
"She didn't put up a fight?" She asked unable to believe it.
"She did at first but I kinda set her off and told her I was scared of her and that we should take a break. She said that she didn't want to stay if she was hurting me in any way. And she asked who should keep Izabella. But I remembered the last time I kept her by myself so I told her to take her." I said rubbing my eyes in frustration.
"I don't know why I let her go. And then Joe called today and told me that she was seen kissing another girl in New York. She moved on so fast. I just need her here with me." I cried.