Wanting You Back

chapter 36

Avalon

I felt relaxed for the first time in the week making me open my eyes as my eyes felt lighten up making me look at the white sheets around my making me feel my heart drop but then, I heard coles voice as he was awake and kicking his legs as he looks at the wind blowing the white thin curtains.

I carried him and looked at jay who was asleep with Cole's milk bottle still in hand.

Did jay stay awake all night?

I pecked coles forehead too busy examining my surrounding.

I don't remember trying to sleep in a tent house like this.

Suddenly, jays phone rang making me look at him who took his phone from under the pillow.

"Yes. Send me the meeting schedules. I aren't planning to go office"he says and hummed before he hung up and went back to sleep.

I took the milk bottle from him making him open his eyes and looked at me with a sleepy smile on his face.

"Morning?"he asked and I just lay cole safety and crawled to get cuddled.

I felt him wrap his hands around me and the next thing I know is I'm in a toilet, throwing my gut out.

I felt someone gently hold my hair to help me out as they sat behind me making me wash my mouth once I was done and look at him.

"Are you okay?" He asked and I shook my head as I rested myself back on him who held me. "Don't worry. I'm still here"he says as he tied my hair up  after he gave Cole to my arms.

He may be a bad husband, bad boss or whatever but I hope he ain't a bad father.

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I looked at him who brought the spoon to feed me peas making me open my mouth and let him feed me since he's enjoying feeding his son and w–

What am I to him?...

"Who am I to you?"I asked looking at him who easily fed cole who was excited.

"Wifey"he says.

"Wifey?" Someone else says making me and jay look at someone who I've never want to ever see.

"What brings you here?"jay asked pretty much sounding annoyed. "Breaking in like that is a crime, you know"he added.

"I'm a cop–"

"Why are you here? Anything related to work or to disturb?"jay asked looking away.

"No. I'm here to t–"

"Alright. Erase all off my scars and clearly see if those can be erased well"I snapped not letting him finish making him literally give up and listen to me. "I hate you so much sebastian....all I wanted was something true but...no, you felt weak under a women who ruined my fucking whole life! You're no different to jay"I stated making jay just gesture me not to argu.

I picked up cole.

"Sebastian... Not right now, we can talk...in my office"he says walking up to Sebastian and walked off.

Jay

"You realize that I could ruin your little colourless life with just one doing, right?"I asked on the way walking and saw him look at me.

"Yes. I'm aware of it..."he says and added. "I just realize that I made a big mistake on using ava l–"

"She's not your ava... Call her Avalon cause that's her name"I say and he stopped walking making me face to look at him.

"Yeah, Avalon... I just want to say I'm sorry, I swear, I really didn't mean to..."he trailed. "Please forgive me"he sigh out.

"Hmm... If you want your forgiveness... You shouldn't keep coming here into our life repeatedly, plus, ava is not in the situation for a talk...I worry for her so much, honestly and, whenever she sees you, she only see the past... Including my mistake"I tell him slow and smooth making him nod.

"Sorry"

"It's not enough...but, I'll see if she could forgive you someday...she really isn't so cruel as me... I won't forgive you. Not even if I'm put in hell... So, you might not want to come face me again"I say and by now, we had reached the exists of the door which he stepped out as the guards opened the door.

He kept looking at me as the doors slowly closed on his face.

I turned to look at Avalon who stood carrying cole.

"Is... everything okay?"she asked making me smile.

I walked up to her and placed a kiss on her forehead.

"Yes, darling. Back to breakfast?"I asked and she gave a small smile.

"Sure... Just carry cole"she says and I carried him before I walked behind her.

Truly, I sometimes think that, Ava should get the best and I feel like I'm not the best ever since how I've treated her.

Honestly... I've really felt bad whenever I think about it.

How dumb was I?...

She went through pain and had my son.

She doesn't deserve this cruelty and whenever I look into Cole's baby eyes, it makes me want to be a better person for Avalon and him.

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Just want to let you guys know. 'once a cheater, always a cheater' can change if that person is willing to make a change in themselves. not everyone is the same. Some people who have cheated on someone can change for the same person if they truly love the person meanwhile, in other cases, Don't accept a second chance from a person who has every intension to repeat the mistake.

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