Wanting You Back

chapter 19

5 months later

Avalon

I dropped cole to his father this afternoon and drive back home but since ashton was suggesting that I should go to a club with him, I got dressed and drove with him there to only get into a bunch of drunk people.

"Ashton....what is this place?"I asked and he took my arm and guided me to a place which smelled way better and thank's to heaven's.

I sat upon an stool and looked at him who went over to his friends.

I rolled my eyes at him before looking at their bartenders who was busy working.

"Are you here for a drink?..."I heard a familiar voice, making me look at sebastian who seemed as fresh and handsome as ever.

Man...he could have become a male model.

"Umm....not yet, I just came with ashton"I say and he looked at him before sitting in front of me on a stool looking disappointed again. "Are you okay?...."I asked and he looked back at me again normal.

I seriously don't know what's his real face.

"Um. Kinda"he says getting up and walked his way out which I got down and followed him behind having a big distance but he stopped and looked back at me making me stop. "Are you following me?.."he asked and I shook my head feeling guilty. "Don't lie. I felt you did"he says and I nodded with a sigh.

"I...wanna to talk to you"I say and he shrugged.

"Sure... "He agreed and held the back of my back giving me shivers as he put me in front and we got out through the crowds and got out from the back door.

I texted ashton that I was going to be out with a friend and he just sent a 'be careful'.

I looked back at him who waited for me in his black Jeep.

I got into the passenger seat and looked at him who emotionlessly started to drive.

"What did... Tiffany do to you?"I suddenly asked feeling nervous that he might yell at me.

He suddenly put on the brakes making me look at him who looked at me.

"A lot"he replied softly and I turned to look at him. "we aren't married but held onto a three year old relationship...she got pregnant and I was expecting that but, we weren't married which I told her that we should get married because...we loved each other but I was a fool, soon I got to know that, She was a drug user, a alcoholic addicted, a player and someone who....had a lot of criminal records specially with rich people... She was a gold digger. Her bad deeds lead her to a death of my child growing in her womb....and I don't know why I'm telling you these when I'm not supposed to"he says putting back on a serious face making me automatically cup his face.

I could see shock and confusion running in his eyes but, I decided to ignore.

"I Know your life's a secret but...you can share anything with me because, I wouldn't tell secrets to anybody, it's just between us, I promise"I say and he just smirked.

"I Know....but, we are totally strangers and you...."he trailed as he looked at me down to up since, i was literally half way on his lap since, I cannot hear him clearly. "I mean...i-I Don't know you..."he stuttered out and took off my hands from his face and opened his car door and got out making me look the way he went confused.

What just happened?...

I got out and looked at him as he walked up a two story house which I followed behind him but once he reached to the front door porch. He looked back at me.

"Wanna um...get to know each others personal secrets?"he asked looking at my eyes deeply making me nod.

I followed him behind and got in his house which looked beautiful.

He walked his way to the kitchen and I looked around.

It feels like home. No body to disturb, no paparazzi to disturb my personal life.

"Why are you smiling while looking at the blank?..."he suddenly asked making me look at him.

"Well, it feels Normal"I say and he simply nodded his head before he took a soda bottle and gave me one before getting out to the living room leaving me alone.

I scanned my eyes around the kitchen until my eyes landed on some alcohol bottle kept Upon the table.

I sat down and took the unopened bottle and opened it using my sharp teeth before I took in a long sip.

I needed this since....I need to get things off my head especially jay and my memories and I believe that I should start a new life but.. it's gonna be so damn hard.

I took one last sip before i kept it down. I felt light a bit and took my soda bottle and took a sip on it before I kept it down and walked out.

I looked at him who was lost in watching the late night news.

"I'm avalon"I suddenly said making him look at me. "I'm a single mother who suffers"I continued. "I am just only twenty-three years"I say sitting on a couch making him come and sit infront of me giving me that suspicious look.

"Did you drink al–" I pressed my index finger against his pinkish lips.

"C'mon baby....I needed it"I say and got up and tried walking my way out but, he held onto my hand and pulled me back inside.

"You cannot go out in this state... you're drunk and what if you get into an accident?.."he asked and I teared up.

"At least I could rest in peace..."I say and again tried to go but he pinned me into the wall.

"Look avalon....drinking will lead you to bad things and you already forgot that you have a son?..."he asked and I shook my head as tears slides down my eyes.

"N-no...that son...h-hurts my feeling...he reminds me of jay"I say and pushed him off me. "You wouldn't understand my feelings anyways because....you.... don't even know me. You only know a little about me"I say and tried to get out of the house once again but he did the most unthinkable thing and just kissed me.

I felt my heart ach as I felt something in my tummy. It was a weird feeling.

I felt myself heat up as I kissed him back.

I don't know where I was going to get to but... something felt good.

He pulled away breathing heavily in and out as he looked at me.

"This hurts"I say and placed my hand where my heart is pumping before I felt myself loose control and pull him for another kiss and literally... sebastian didn't reject anything I did.

Wow. Does he want this?

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The next chapter will be TIFFANY'S P.O.V