The Moonlight Lilac

41 - The One With All The Chasing Pt. 1

Trigger Warning: Mention of sexual assault and suicide that may not be suitable for some readers. I'd be putting an "🔞" tag on the part where these topics will be tackled. Read at your own discretion.

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Chapter 41 - The One With All The Chasing Pt. 1

Limang araw makalipas mula nung nagpunta siya sa kwarto ko para tignan kung ayos lang ako. Limang araw mula nang makiusap ako sa kanya na lumabas sa kwarto at iwan ako mag isa. Limang araw matapos kung madiskubre yung sikretong taniman dito sa mansyon...

Hindi ko na ulit na kita si Thera.

She's been absent for 5 days. And just like before, no one knows where she is.

I can feel the longing. I'm a liar if I'll say that I don't miss her. I do. I badly miss her. Pero sa kabilang banda, yung kasalukuyang distansya sa pagitan namin matapos lahat ng mga nangyare, matapos lahat ng mga bagay na natuklasan ko na wala paring linaw, tingin ko mainam nang malayo kami sa isa't isa sa ngayon.

Duwag na kung duwag, pero hanggang ngayon, hindi ko parin alam kung paano siya haharapin. Higit sa lahat, kung paano ko siya kakausapin. Should I even tell her about everything that I learned? Right now, talking to her feels like a make-or-break. One wrong move and my life could slide into total shambles.

Confronting someone is never a problem for me. I always believe that sharing what you feel and what bothers you with someone dear to you is really important and the most mature way of handling things. Kung simpleng problema 'to, kukumprotahin ko siya. I'll tell her everything.

But this...this is different.

Imagine confronting someone you fell in love with after learning that she is a possible serial killer. If that word "possible" turns into "truth", confronting her would definitely change my life in a way that I'd never imagined.

It doesn't matter how massive my love is for her. Yung pagmamahal na meron ako sa kanya, sigurado ako dun. Walang duda. Pero hindi ako pwedeng maging tangang in love lang tapos susugod ng basta basta makasama lang siya. Reyalidad 'to! Ang daming nakasugal dito!

If she really is the Moonlight Lilac, it's not just my life I'm putting on stake; I'm putting my mother's, my family's, my friends, even hers. Kung siya nga talaga yun, kaibigan ko yung mga taong misyon sa buhay na mahuli siya't maparusahan. One way or another, there's someone I need to sacrifice. And there's no better option. Even if I choose between them, it doesn't mean I'll have a happy ending. Pero matapos ng mga nalaman ko? I already said goodbye to happy ending.

I smiled bitterly. Kahit pag balikbaliktarin ang sitwasyon, kahit ano pang maging desisyon ko, hindi ako mananalo. Like I said, either way, I'll lose someone that would probably make me lose myself. So fuck happy ending! I'm ready for the sad one.

Unless...

I'm just a plain dramatic dumbass and she's not the Moonlight Lilac.

Isang malalim na buntong hininga ang pinakawalan ko nang bumukas ang pinto ng elevator na sinasakyan ko.

Sana nga overthinker lang ako na tatanga tanga.

Agad akong lumabas sa elevator habang isinusuot ang dala kong backpack. Biyernes na naman ng hapon, off ko na naman. Uuwi na naman ako samin kung saan naroon si mama at si Riley. Madalas, ginagabi na ko umuwi kapag off ko. Pero ngayon, pagkatapos na pagkatapos ng klase ko ay umakyat na ko kaagad sa kwarto para maghandang umuwi.