Like a Moth to a Flame (girlxgirl)

Chapter 19: three words

Sarah's POV

Okay, here's the thing I don't know what came out of my mind that I thought that I have all the confidence or have the guts to actually talk Alicia into doing this when I don't even have a clue on what to do. It was an impulse on part I mean if you look at her she is like a walking sex bomb. Everything about her is gorgeous and irresistible. You can't blame me launching onto her right the minute she steps in the house.

"Sarah... are you..uhmm okay?" Alicia said while gently knocking the door.

"Yeah.. In a minute!" I shouted while calling out to her from the bathroom. Right after we step inside my room a plague of nervousness took over my body and told her that I need to go to the bathroom and to ready myself. Ready myself!? God what does that even mean? Here I am locked inside my bathroom to ready myself in doing it. I am such a dork. I don't even begin to imagine what Alicia is thinking right now behind the door. What should I do? Do I have to dab some perfume. Gosh dab some perfume I am totally a dork. Just go out there and everything will follow through I said to myself. Just simple as that and go with the flow, just relax and breathe.

"Sarah, sweetheart you're scaring me. You know that I can hear you talking to yourself right..? Alicia said chuckling. "We are not going to do something that you are not ready to do, okay? We'll just talk." She said gently.

"We are?" still nervous as I open the door slowly and saw her smiling at me sweetly. Oh god this was the reason why I am ready to do this. Everything about her is wonderful, her smile, her eyes, how she quirk her brow perfectly. Oh come on anyone who is in 5 foot radius will understand why can't get off my hands off her!

Alice slowly grab my waist moving me closer to her as her lips slowly met mine and gently tug my lower lip with her perfect lips. "As much as I want this to go further, I know that you are not ready." She said as she slowly releases me. My mind went blank looking at her as she gently pulls me and settles me to my bed. "Look I know you are nervous and it's natural for you to feel nervous. Heck I didn't even know how I felt the first time I... " I must have look at her incredulously as she stop to explain me something which I was trying desperately not to think about her having sex with someone else. Just thinking about that makes me mad beyond belief that I couldn't explain the rush of feeling of jealous beyond words.

"Okay, it seems like I have step on a mine filled here and I am sorry that you are upset about what I've said. Look I can't change my past that is why I am explaining to you how important it is to be ready."

"Oh really, why, were you not ready before?" I asked sarcastically.

"That is not what I meant."

"What did you mean then? You know how nervous I am and here you are bringing up how you had sex with your boyfriend." I said angrily gritting my teeth. It is not fair and I know that she had a boyfriend before but I just can't control this feeling of jealousy that overtook my body and all sense and sensibilities flew out the window.

"I didn't bring it up I just said that I understand how can you be so nervous about it and besides it was your fault. If it were not--" She said looking mad at me.

"Wait a minute what do you mean my fault? Now you're blaming me?!" I asked her dumbfounded.

"Yeah you! If you wouldn't have kissed Jaime I wouldn't have sex with Blake!"

"Are you out of your freaking mind?! Why would I kissed Jaime, he is my best friend! I wouldn't kiss him even if he is the last person on earth!"

"Sophomore year, you were on the field painting while Jaime was your model at that time." Alice said furiously as if her words were explanation enough.