Like a Moth to a Flame (girlxgirl)

Chapter Four: confusion or deception

Alicia's POV

"You really overdone it this time sis" jaime said with disappointed look on his face, he then follow where sarah was heading to. i look at maria who smile at me sadly i know that she thinks everything sarah just said was all true and thats why she's looking at me sadly. 

"i agree with jaime alice." monica said "whats got into you that you said that to her, you never go beyond that. you always just make fun of her with your childish trick which is cute sometimes but today was just awful. you're being a bitch alice." she said and she pulled maria inside the school and headed to their classroom. we have different classes and i made sure that all my class is with sarah. shit! what im going to do? i cant able to see her face right now. though i'm used to seeing her mad at me and i always like it but not like this. her face was indescribable and damn right scary. 

"you know what alice, i know thats its been pretty hard for you but what you did today was not good at all. i dont want to tell you this coz its your private life but do you really think that she will love you back after what you've done to her?" i look at jeanne and was so shocked. i mean i already thought that she knew but i was just so shocked that she told me. she was never that kind of person who say something about your personal life. "dont worry im not gonna tell your secret, im not against it. you know that no matter what you do ill be right here. i just dont want to see you get hurt. sort this out alice before its too late. you might lose her forever." she said as she smile sadly and head inside the campus. i was just there left alone in the parking lot. i just hurt the person i love the most. she was really angry this time. i never saw her this mad. i know im a jerk. while on my way here i was thinking about the summer that we had. the way she looked at those boys eyes it hurts me that i wanna die. seeing them all through summer was so painful that it made me go back to my old self, to the cold girl that i was. i was trying to ignore them the whole time coz if i even care to look at her, really look at her she can really see how vulnerable i am. im just really scared of losing her with that boy. when  summer ends i was so happy because she's not going to see that boy again. i can see her everyday at school at make up the most time that i wasnt able to spend my time with her at the camp. but when i saw them with my brother with that dreamy look on her face. my emotions got out of hand. i was just so jealous of my brother that i didnt know what to do and next thing i knew i told her things that i so regret! ughhh i really hate my life right now. how can i face her. then i realized that everyone was looking at me confuse as to why i was standing alone here in the parking lot. i immedietly walk inside the campus plastering a sarcastic smile at them which they immedietly scrambled nervously. i head to sarah's locker and place a tiny note inside. then i head to my first period class.

"its nice of you to join us alicia" ms robertson said sarcastically

"im sorry ms. robertson i just spaced out that i forgot the time but it wont happen again" i smiled at her sweetly that i know she'll have no choice but to forgive me. i wish i can just do it to sarah too.

"very well since its the first day of class i let you off with just a warning.  just go take a seat beside sarah" i easily snapped my head to where sarah was. she was just looking at me blankly like she didnt see me at all. oh damn this is going to be a long class. everyone in class was just staring at us. they must have witnessed the commotion awhile ago and maybe they're waiting for a fight to ensue. when i sat on my chair and look at them they easily look away and turn their attention to ms. robertson. mrs. robertson discuss about romeo and juliet about how their love so strong even death cant break it.  

"so class i want you all to make a a novel about a tragic love like romeo and juliet and you need to complete it by the end of the school year." what! is she kiddung me, ive got a lot of problems to deal to than to make a stupid novel about tragic love. i need to fix mine first. all of us are whining about the project. "dont worry class, you will have a partner for this project. so its not going to be that hard. just partner up to the person beside you" ohh my god sarah is going to be my partner. im excited but at the same time scared. what if she'll figure out what i felt about her. as i look at sarah as she talked to ms. robertson. "can i just make the project by myself ms. robertson? i really dont need a partner for it." she said worriedly "i know you can do it by yourself sarah but its kinda unfair to your partner and besides it will be a great oppurtunity for you to mingle with other people sarah. i've noticed that you never talked to anyone aside from jaime. so this is final sarah your partner will be the person beside you, okay?" i feel really bad because i know im the reason why sarah doesnt have friends. if only im not too selfish enough. i looked at sarah sadly and she just look at me with ang blank expression on her face. i did that to her. i was so bad that i made her unhappy here. from now on its going to change. so i stand up and walked over to where they are and said 

"its ok ms. robertson, i dont need a partner anyway. i just coudnt concentrate on making a novel if you partner us up and besides partner will just ruin everything up." i smiled at them sweetly. i look at sarah with a shocked look on her face.

"oh very well since you girls are my best student then i can make an exemption. i know you guys can make it." she said dismissively not wanting to argue coz she knows how we hated each other. 

i head out to my next class i know she will be in it too but ill make sure that i'll sit as far away from her as possible. 

lunch was up and i was ready to to head to the cafeteria when i saw sarah heading off to her locker. oh shit i totally forgot about the note i put in. i was about to run fast to her locker when its to late. she open up her locker and then the small note just fall down the ground. she went to pick it up with a confused look on her face. As she read the note her face was looking more confused and then her expression change into an angry one. when she look up she saw me. she slowly head towards me angrily "i dont know what your problem is and what i've done to you but i just want you to leave me alone!" she said angrily 

"I cant." i said hoarsely 

"what do you mean you cant?! im sick and tired of this. i cant go on playing with your games anymore alicia. you keep on hurting my feelings like im just a disposable toy. i do hurt alicia and what you said really hurts me a lot. im done being your toy alicia!" she was now looking at me with tears on her eyes. it really breaks my heart to see her like this.

"i cant let you" i said

"fuck------" she was about to say it, she was never the type of girl who curse but right now she was really mad so before she can finish it. i yanked her towards the janitor closet and i kissed her lips i tried to coaxed her to respond but she just froze. when she was about to open her mouth to say something i immedietly slid my tongue inside her mouth tasting her sweet little mouth, i try to make her respond by moving her tongue using my tongue. stroking it up and down until she fought back for dominance. god how i always wanted to kiss this mouth of hers how i dreamt that this day will come. we stop to catch our breathe and then continue to kiss each other. her hands was now moving to my neck and i was now holding her face. it was like that for eternity and when i realized that my friends might be looking for me. i just look in her eyes and told her "because i love you.." i said softly and i left her their with the shocked look on her face.

i cant help but smile thinking about what happened inside the janitors closet. that was amazing and she kissed me back. 

"hey you look like a sick dog smiling by yourself!" i heard monica said i just snapped out of my thought. i was now sitting at our usual lunch table. "did something happened? why are you looking so flusterred?" she asked smiling at me. all of them was staring at me smiling waiting for my answer. "nothing, im just happy!" i said blushing "ohh my god are you blushing? did you kissed someone before heading down here?" maria asked excitedly. i was about to answer her when i saw sarah with the guy from the summer camp. they all follow where im looking at and why my mood change all of a sudden. "who is that cute guy with sarah? is that her boyfriend?" monica asked. "oh that my friend is my cousin mike! the one i told you about who will be staying at my house for the rest of the school year coz my aunt and uncle is out on a one year vacation." oh yeah i remembered jeanne mention about a cousin that will be staying here, and that her cousin so kind and gorgeous but i really never paid enough attention about it. "hey mike! sarah! come sit with us guys!" jeanne said waving at sarah and mike. sarah is a little bit hesitant to come but i can see that mike told her something that she gladly walks with him. Sarah was now looking at me shyly and blushing. i would really find her cute if only im not so jealous right now. i look at her smuggly and look away and just pay attention to my food.