Josephine POV
Mo and I had just finished shopping. I bought new make up from Mac, new perfume, some gorgeous new in stock clothes, some running shoes and work out clothes because I'm lazy as fuck and need to exercise, we also got our nails done and I got my hair dyed. I got it ombré but it was a hazelnut sort of colour instead of blonde at the ends.
Me and Mo, the white girls we are, decided to go to Starbucks. I ordered an Iced Mocha and Mo got the Cotton-Candy Frap.
On the drive home I told Mo everything with the Nash situation, she seemed pretty shocked that Nash would do that, actually so did all the boys when they found out, but anyway I also mentioned that he wanted to talk when I got home. We talked about it the whole drive.
I parked outside Mahogany's hotel and helped her carry her shopping bags inside. "Thank you for that. Ok good luck with Nash and make sure you ring me and tell me exactly what happens!!!" She said getting really bouncy. "Ok Mo I will calm down!" I told her while hugging her. "Jo, I Love you lots you loser". "I love you lots you weirdo".
On the drive home I was so anxious. I parked the car in our parking and got the lift to our floor, Cam and I live in a really cool apartment that overlooks down town LA, our parents bought it for us to live in, they live a block away. As I got out of the lift and walked to the door to the apartment my stomach turned upside down. I was about to have a panic attack. I put my key into the door to open it so I could rush inside and sit down but as I put the key in the lock, my mind started yelling at me and I just fell.
Nash and Cameron ran out, they picked me up and laid me inside on the couch. I wasn't passed out or anything, I was fine. I just have panic attacks sometimes. I could hear Nash freaking out and asking cam what happened. "Bro she's fine. She just isn't good with feelings and shit. She has panic attacks. Even if the situation isn't serious she will have them. She can't help it. Everyone says she's just dramatic, one of the reasons why she is so insecure" Cam told Nash. I sat up on the couch and looked at Cam. "Im ok" I insisted, Nash came over with water. I thanked him. "Ok me and Nash are going to go into my room to talk cam" I said giving him a hug, he just nodded and smiled at Nash.
I sat on my bed and crossed my legs, Nash sat on my bean bag in front of the window which had the best view of LA. "you start. Abuse me say what ever you want. I deserve it all" Nash told me, not making eye contact, just looking miserably out the giant window. "Nash you know I'm not that sort of person. But what am I meant to say to you?" I asked him. He shrugged. "Nash what the fuck were you thinking? In that moment, were you thinking about yourself or me. Or both of us? Because if you really loved me or what ever the frick you wanna call it, you wouldn't of broken up with me. It had only been 4 weeks. Yes I missed you like crazy, and it was driving me crazy but I didn't break up with you, because I had to keep it together so I was stable enough to go out onto that stage and perform!" I started to say, a little aggressively. Nash didn't move, he was just taking it all. "Somewhere in my heart I do understand why you did it. But what I do not understand is why over text?! Why!? You could of called me or something. You don't do that over text!" I continued until I was cut off by Nash. "You wanna know why?! YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY! Because the second I heard your voice I would of lost my shit, if I had called you I wouldn't of done it!" Nash said standing up to look at me. "But why did you have to break up with me!!?" I asked, getting more frustrated and hurt by the second. "BECAUSE I FUCKING MISSED YOU. and it might not make sense to you but I did in my head. But that doesn't mean it felt right, and it doesn't mean it was the right thing to do!" Nash was saying as a tear fell from his face. I got up so I was face to face with him, well he was a little taller than me so it ruined it. As I looked into his eyes, tears started falling one after the other. I started to sob. He pulled me in close to his chest and held me there for a good 2 minutes. My arms were wrapped around his waist and his around my neck. "I love you and I'm such an idiot for letting you go" Nash whispered kissing my head. "I love you too" I sobbed into his chest.
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