INSOMANIAC | Mattbin

Four?

Chapter four: Are you google? Because I want to search every information about you.

Wiping away my tears with his hands, Haruto pouted at me, saying, "You don't deserve this Hanbin hyung." He pulled me towards him and rubbed my back as I poured down everything I stored in for the past few days.

It's just that, even thinking about Hao has affected me a lot. He makes me feel numb every-time I see him. It's not fair man, why am I suffering everything here? Whatever's happening to me these days, has been emotionally damaging me. I couldn't take this anymore.

I know I should stop being negative for once, but all those overwhelming feelings - an ex has given me -  are unbearable.

Although life's been pretty shit, I'm so grateful for Haruto to be by my side. He could dote my sullen look the time when he was dropping me to my dorm room. He knew I wasn't okay.

"I'm sure it's just two years more to go until you graduate." He said. I did a mhm sound to agree with him.

"Seeing him everyday still hurts me." - my classic response that made me break down into tears even more. He continued caressing my back, and shushed me.

"I know. I know Hanbin. I know how you feel like. Seeing someone - who loved you the most - treat you like a stranger is one of the worst things to ever happen. Give yourself time, time heals everything." - he advised to me in a despairing tone.

"Maybe I should."  I replied back, wiping away my tears.

I could feel buzzing vibrations on my thighs. Oh, it's a phone call. I slid my hands into my pocket so that I can pick them up. Apparently, it was a phone call from Ricky.

Haruto asked me to show who it was, so I turned my phone towards him to show who was it.

"What happened you rizzler?" I picked up the call.

"Haruto's birthd-" Ricky was about to mention but I shushed him off. Thank god it wasn't on speaker. The way Haruto then forcefully gripped my phone, swooshing it away from my hands. He turned on the speaker and started scolding, "Listen up you Ricky, Hanbin hyung has no time to entertain himself with your ass. He's crying right now and his eyes are red, drenched with tears ; so stop making him uncomfortable."

I could hear the gasp from Ricky's end so loudly. The call was cut as soon as I explained to Haruto that he had just stated a weird fact, just like how he always does. The latter sighed out of relief, okay thank god. He covered his face and blushed so hard out of embarrassment.

Now, I heard the ear splitting 'ding Dong' right towards the direction of my door. Woah, Ricky came that fast. I let him in as Haruto ducked in his head and nuzzled himself on my chest with wrapped hands around my shoulder.

Ricky glances at him doing that, and chuckles a little bit. "No Ricky stay away! I can't believe I made such an unnecessary mess." screamed Haruto, in a muffling tone.

"Chill, that's not my main concern."- was what his usual replies are, including the deep,calm and soothing tone.

"Hanbin hyung, do you share to care about the cause of your tears?" Ricky took a step towards me and placed his hand on my shoulder. "Ahh..."

My eyes started diluting once again. I wish I could explain it but I didn't have the mental capacity to do so. Hence, I demanded Ruruto to give out an explanation.

After recounting the story to him, Ricky stuck out his tongue once again. "I think you should really stop engaging with that guy. He probably still likes you, and his eyes must've had burnt with jealousy when he saw you around that Matthew guy." - that's what his advice was. I looked below, softly whining about the fact that he might've had wanted ne to suffer, since I usually don't hang out with anyone anymore.

"Possible, but you have us, especially me and Ricky, if you ever feel lonely. Plus,there's a possibility Matthew would might just want you to date him. Give it a shot." Haruto stated his opinion.

My head shook horizontally once again. No. There's no way. Me and Matthew? Ew. I would rather die alone than get with anyone else.

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End of chapter 4