INSOMANIAC | Mattbin

Fifteen??

Chapter 15: your presence is what draws me close to you

It was almost 2 pm and I heard a doorbell. That's going to be Matthew. For sure.

I opened the door and bowed down to greet him to act polite. Matthew also bowed down back and got a backpack and a bag which smelled heavenly.

He removed his shoes and settled himself in our hall inside. Pretty much polite for a Canadian. He kept the handbag on the table and asked me if I've eaten or not. I shook my head because throughout the whole afternoon I was scrolling through social media. He then removed the bag and gave me a piping hot box of fish cakes. I'm sure he must've gotten it from a nearby grandma's shop.

Damn, is he that thoughtful?

I thanked him by giving him a short hug. I don't really know how to express the uttermost gratitude I felt so I think a hug and a 'thank you' was enough. Matthew's a nice guy, I guess.

"Well, I didn't eat yet and I thought maybe I can eat here and work simultaneously and I didn't want you to feel left out so I bought you lunch." He said. "Ah! It's fine you didn't have to but once again thank you." I gave him another smile.

From his backpack, he got a laptop and placed it on the table so that we can start working on our project. He showed me the research and notes me made and damn, I'm pretty much impressed.

Well, while I was eating, I thought of Haruto's birthday party.

"Hey Matthew." I called out his name. He looked at me and hummed in question. "Can you please help me with some decorations?We're planning to give Haruto a surprise part." I pleaded him. He gave that gummy smile again. Oh how I wish he did that more often- Hanbin hold your horses. Okay fine, he has a nice smile I can say.

Yeah so he did agree to me which is a good thing , but I think I should really return the favour. "Ah I think you should also come to Haruto's birthday party, you're new and you really need some friends to go around. By friends, I mean my gang." I told him. "Since it's you who has invited me, I must accept the offer." Matthew pointed and winked at me like what?! Bitch?!? Did he try to flirt with me? Huh?

"I mean thank you so much Hambin hyung." The way he said my name was so adorable I'm not even joking I internally awed. "I really think I wouldn't have had come if it wasn't for you to invite me. Not going to lie, you're the only one who I'm kind of comfortable with." Ah, so Matthew didn't flirt. No!! He winked at me how am I supposed to deny that fact. Fuck it man, I care about a new student- who is my 'friend' now. I hate it, I hate connecting to new people, especially a random stranger I met a week ago.

The fact that Matthew also said he's comfortable around me... aww, that's nice of him- I am glad I could make him feel welcomed because all I know is no one else gives an actual fuck about prioritising someone's feelings and making them feel important. Maybe I should become what others aren't.

I really couldn't help myself but smile, I wanted to hug him again, not as a friend, but as a human. Compassion is something vital when it comes to leveraging yourself and stepping up the stairs to success. Ok enough of my motivational thoughts, I think I'm not that friendly with others but still, I'm really content that I could at least help someone feel included.

Due to my urges to hug him, I pulled him besides me and put my arm around his upper torso, leading him to bury himself into my chest (just like how Haruto does often) and put his hands on my waist again. My other hand encircled his shoulder.

If I were to be honest, it felt so lukewarm yet a place to feel safe in. A homely and sheltering cwtch a person could ever provide. There are a thousand other words I can describe this with, but I really need to control myself.

It's funny how I'm treating him just like how I treat my best friend, when all he is a random transfer student who I met like a week ago. It's fine, it's fine, I know I've done worse. For example, falling for someone in just two days. I don't really think that someone's worth mentioning anymore.

I'm just getting sick of that certain someone, I thought he had a reason of his doings and that I might've been faulty, but at this point this world is full of evil people and no one here likes peace and affection. I never mouth a single word around him and yet he's the one who wanted us to break up and hypocritically the one to always approach and fight me. It's so nonsensical of a prodigy to engage in such shameful activities. I swear something's wrong with that fellow.

Back to real life, I broke the hug. We needed to get back to our assignment. We both continued working on our project and did our work silently, by ourselves. Once we were done with half of our projects, I suggested him that we could start on the decorations.

Our ordered balloons, candles, lights, etc had arrived shortly as we began to blow the balloons, light the candles and switch on the lights. Then, we arranged the balloons according to the spelling of "Happy Birthday" and put the "18" balloon beside the balloons.

Matthew climbed up the stairs and was putting it in orderly until he felt himself getting unbalanced. He was almost about to fall down and break his bones but thankfully, I picked him up in a bridal style. Matthew's eyes were frozen and his whole body was shaking, giving me a chance to look at his cute features. Woah, those eyes are surreal.

Even looking at him is something that is indescribable. Those innocent eyes that gleam with purity, with those rosy and kissable lips. Note that im not acting homosexual, we assume it as a general comment.

The door creaks open

And I am surprised to see Ricky- who has the emergency keys- bombard into my house and immediately widen his eyes, covering his gasping mouth.

What the shit is happening....

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End of chapter 15

I wrote this back in 19th Jan 2024 and publishing it on November I gotta be crazy
I NEED TO PUBLISH HARUTO'S BDAY CHAPTER EXACTLY ON 16TH NOV NOW!!!
I wrote it already but it's not 5 drafts away so 😅😅
im writing chapter 23 rn and I swear all my chapters are 1000~2000 word long so there's a LOT of content to enjoy for my lovely readers 🤭