INSOMANIAC | Mattbin

Nine?

Chapter 9: A corner of my heart is filled with my love for you.

This time, the alarm rung early thankfully. Hence, I was able to reach to the class earlier than before. My main agenda at that moment was: talk to Zihao and check up on Matthew during P.E .

As i arrived to the classroom, I saw no one else but Keita. He was reading a book, so it was best if I don't disturb him by greeting him. Since I had nothing else to do, I scrolled to our school forum to check what were the reactions by the other people to me and Matthew.

Anonymous: Sung Hanbin (성한빈) and the transfer student Seok Matthew (석매튜) spotted holding hands. Do you think they're dating.

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Anonymous2: Really?? I can't believe it o_o
1_Terazono._2: Not a single word comes to each other when in class. Suspicious 🤨 Also, they used to be seat mates, so there's something fishy for real.
Kimsoeun3: Really?! Didn't him and @ha_oh recently break up??
Parkjeonmi: what a switched up man sung Hanbin is ㅋㅋㅋ go get your man back @ha_oh
Kumjunhyeo_n: AWWW THEY LOOK SO CUTE TOGETHER 😍😍💍💍 THEY ARE DATING?(confirmed by 헌 빈's very own best friend)
-> I.am.haruto: MAYBE BABY
-> 19wangg: WAIT THEYRE FR TOGETHER??
-> I.am.haruto: Babe I wish 😔
->Kumjunhyeo_n: what did I just see...go get a room
-> 19wangg: could say the same after Ruto wrote maybe baby to u
->Kumjunhyeo_n: someone's jealous.
ha_oh: WHY IS EVERYONE TAGGING ME?? I HAVE NO BUSINESS WITH THAT MAN
-> 19wangg: You're literally his ex, wtf??
-> ha_oh: we don't talk abt that 🤐

First of all, this all made me gag like shit. Specially the way these pick me girls tagged Hao hyung. Like, their audacity? Keita's such a speculating loser, and Junhyeon is hella delusional. I'm serious. Haruto needs to really get a room and stop flirting with everyone, his love life is at a stake. Same with Junhyeon, even he needs to have a life. Just like his best friend having a crush on one of Hao hyung's friends, so did he. He keeps mingling with others usually, but Taerae happened, and he has a huge crush on him apparently.  

They are just like Haruto and Zihao. Corny as hell, but loyal to each other. Honestly, I wish it was like that between me and Hao. Well, both of them are so pussy to ask them out, so I won, but at what cost?

Forget it, I just wish that the same thing doesn't happen to Haruto and Junhyeon the way it happened to me.

Right then, Zihao walked in alone. Surprising. He probably didn't want to third wheel Hao and Kuanjui. Would be embarrassing , right? I gulped some saliva down and called his name. He turned towards me and waved at me with a grin. How fake.

I walked towards him and scoffed. "Ahem-"

"Did Haruto happen again?"- he asked. I widened my eyes, wondering how did he even get straight to the point. I nodded.

"Listen up, you better stop ignoring him when it comes to real life. I understand that me and Hao are no more a thing, but that doesn't stop you and Haruto from-" I explained it to him until Zihao cut me off, "Right. It's been really awkward between me and Ruto because of that situation."

Ruto?? Aren't they going too close with each other? They gotta know that they like each other  or stay on their limits as friends or else it's goodbye to their friendship soon. Now, I've to ask the big question.

"Yes! Now that I'd like to ask you a question." I told him. "Me too, let's say it together."

"Do you like Haruto?" Yes, i did it. 

"Do you like Matthew?" He said this in harmony with my question.

Obviously, the flustered face plastered, was the answer. I just needed a verbal confirmation. Also, not him asking me the same question I ask myself daily. The answer is no. I genuinely don't. Why would I? What's so great in him? I'm just tired of everyone shipping me with him, like can it stop, for gods sake, please? It's not gonna be true anyways.

"Will answer your question if you chose not to disclose it. You can expect the same for me." Zihao patted my back and told me. Sigh, another deal. But, what advantage would he even gain if I tell him that I don't have a crush on Matthew. Simple. Since he has the courage to tell me about him liking Haruto(which I already know), I won't mind telling him that I'm still in love with Hao. I showed him a thumbs up, as he proceeded to answer.

"Yes, I have a huge crush on him." He said. Okay, as expected. Am not surprised at all. Thankfully my best friend doesn't have to stay unrequited. Problem is, I can't spill the fact that they both line each other. Time to tell Zihao the big thing.

"And I still like your best friend too..."

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End of chapter 9