INSOMANIAC | Mattbin

Twelve??

Chapter 12: just treat me like a vitamin I'm good for ya'

Economics lecture,and my cute seat mate- who was cladded in my hoodie- was fast asleep. I wonder how will the teacher even notice? Oh yes, he's short.

I've been noting it that whenever he's sitting with me, he's always asleep. What is it in me that causes this insomniac freak to take a nap. I bet one day he would want to copy my test paper and in the process he would be dozing off. Why doesn't he sleep at night then?

The next time i ever meet him outside of classes and school, maybe in our dorms, I'll give him sleeping pills. Oh! I've already gotten his birthday gift idea, they'll surely work on him. Problem is, i don't think ill continue ending up being his friend. After the project, I'll cut off contact with him, because he has other friends like Hao already. Why would he even need me (besides our project of course)?

Well, in the end, no matter how sleepless he is, I'm glad someone's able to actually rest besides me. Although, he really needs to start practising sleeping methods. The way he found peace while taking that benefit of sleeping. He looked adorable (no homo i swear) i don't know why, i had the urge to tell him that he looked better in my hoodie. So I did.

"Matthew-ya, you look cuter while sleeping in my hoodie." i softly said that to him, not giving a fuck about anyone else who must've had seen this (surprising)

I patted his head and told him to sleep well, that caused him to subconsciously hum.

Once economics lecture ended, i left Matthew to doze off to sleep. Maybe I'll get back my hoodie some other day.

As soon as I was walking towards the exit door, i got gently tapped by someone again. I know who this is. Hao hyung! Fuck, my heart keeps speeding up again. How will I even talk to him after knowing that he's with someone else.

"Dont you want to wake him up!"- he said that a little harshly. Now, who is he, my mom? I mean, he's mommy material tho! Joke.

"Let him sleep. He has eyebags anyways."  I replied back calmly. "Right, and the class is going to get locked and if he gets caught by a teacher, he's so doomed." He answered back. Ugh, that clever bitch.

"You seem like you're his dad or something, how about you go and wake him up." An excuse I said so that I don't talk to Matthew.

"Yes, we're so close that I let him borrow my hoodie for a few days then later hold his hand and treat it by myself and today give him a huge hug and take him to the garden to have a private conversation. Truly close indeed." Common sarcastic bitch. Also, how does he know about the hug thing and the garden thing.

"For your information, Matthew was feeling cold during the first day. I couldn't let anyone die so easily." My fists were clenched, hoping I'd punch him soon and he would get behind me.

"Hanbin, that isn't you. When we first met, you were literally trying to avoid me." Thanks for pointing it again at me, Zhang Hao. That was so long back. I really liked him back then.

"Of course, I had a crush on you the moment I saw you and I thought I was unrequited and I apologised to you for multiple times, okay?" That common thing I had to say everytime.

"Admit it, you never liked me." Hao hyung was so close to starting off a really stupid argument until Matthew randomly comes in to save us. How did he even wake up?

"Stop fighting you two!" He scolded at us. "Well, that isn't a fight. It's a debate." Hao composedly responded to him.

"I clearly don't see a topic revolving." Matthew said back. "Well, even it's a fight, why do you care?" I scowled back at him.

"Because it's so clear that you both are still in love with each other!" He said facts, at least from my side. I turned away, blushing a little bit. I really don't know what his reaction was, but I walked out of the classroom the moment I heard it.

Matthew: the words he spoke still cannot be forgotten. Problem is, Hao hyung has Kuanjui. Maybe Matthew ain't aware of it and hyung's right about it because all that we've been doing is literally hanging out one on one, me giving him my hoodie, hugging him twice, even taking him to my home (to treat his hand, nothing else)

Just because I don't have any more lectures to attend, and that it's lunch break, I thought why not I just go home? Before that, I realised i had to call Zihao, Haruto wanted to talk to him so why not approach him.

I walked back towards the class to find that there's no Hao, phew, i would've been so embarrassed. Instead, Matthew was there, arranging his locker. Zihao was with Taerae- who had just entered the class. That meant, double opportunity, since Junhyeon and Haruto wouldve probably crowded themselves around each other.

"Ah! Zihao-ya!" I called out. My gaze shifted towards Taerae and I waved at him. "Let me guess, isn't it about Haruto again?" He asked me. "Yeah he wants to talk to you! Taerae, Junhyeon would like to hang out with you to. Go before they shamelessly flirt with each other!" I laughed after I said the last line. Zihao responded by saying, "Then I'll join the rizz games." Taerae playfully hit him on the shoulder and said, " Stop with the foolery yah."  We all started laughing amongst each others. "I'm sure you'd do the same, you're whipped for Junhyeon." Zihao told him back. "So is Junhyeon, he visibly simps on you." I said. And the air was awkward again. Wait! Did I just tell Taerae that Junhyeon likes him back? Shit. I'm screwed. We all looked away from each other.

"Oh right! Hanbin hyung. You said you liked Hao hyung, right? Apparently, without anyone telling him, he already knows about it." Taerae said that. Ugh, I knew it he knew about that. He's smart.

"Really?" I asked. "Mhm!"

"I'm doomed." My voice got lower. Both shook their head. "You ain't. Hyung might be rude, but he'd never let anyone lay a hand on you." He started explaining.

Fuck. I'm doomed. I'm confused.

"Really? Since when did he say this?" I tried to confirm. "The moment he realised you still like him. We were all shocked about it, so we asked him why does he have a really big personal grudge against you because in your case it must've been very abrupt for you to feel like this. He said that regardless of anything, he couldn't show hate on you and that he would've wanted the best for you. Unfortunately, he's dating Kuanjui, you know." Taerae further explained that to me. Ugh, thank you for ruining my day, Zhang Fucking Hao.

"Yeah, yeah." I rolled my eyes in disbelief. Suddenly, my hands were forcefully wrapped by someone's soft hands. Turned around to notice it was none other than Matthew. Gosh, not him.

"What do you want now?" I asked him. "Come with me, hyung." - he demanded. Of course, i had to agree to this. Didn't want to see neither Taerae, nor Zihao.

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End of chapter 12