To rebuild our home

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Jon's POV

Eduardo saw the note as well as the blood stained tissues and gauzes that I simply forgot about and only when I saw his smile drop and his eyes beginning to well up with tears again I remembered the things that I threw away.

"I'm so sorry. Are there any other things in the room that I should see, like for example the object that you used to... Well you know, harm yourself?" The brunette asked me. I nodded and then showed him the knife that I hid and used to cut myself as well as a pair of pants that were blood stained and that I hid in the closet because of that. I hated showing them those things and was still afraid to how they would react to all of this, but they only reacted in the best way possible. They hugged me and told me that everything was going to be fine right now and took care of the things that I showed them.

After redecorating and cleaning up my room I really felt better every time I saw my room and wasn't greeted with a mess but with a beautiful room. A room that was finally cleaned up from every sign of depression or self destructive behavior.

Eduardo wanted to then see my arms so that he could prevent them from getting any infections and when I firstly showed him my arms I could see that he felt guilty and regrettful about

He didn't said anything, but I could tell by the way that he tried to hold back his tears that he was still giving himself the fault for my cuts. "Don't beat yourself up, it is not your fault." I told him with a warm smile. He shook him head and continued looking at my arms. "It is my fault Jon. I was the reason that you did this to yourself." He stated before he began to clean my cuts.

I didn't arguied with him but instead I gave him a smile and thanked him for taking care of me. He then wanted me to lift up my shirt so that he could examine the wound on my chest and from the look on his face I could tell that the wound looked pretty bad. He used alcohol to clean it as he did before with my cuts. But this time the stinging was so horrible that I flinched a few times while he was trying to clean it.

Instead of yelling at me like he would usually do, he apologized for hurting me even though he wasn't hurting me on purpose. I told him that I was fine and that he didn't needed to apologize so often. He seemed to treat me as if I was fragile all of a sudden, this made me smile. I felt as if I was special.

After cleaning up my wounds and bandaging them, Eduardo told me to follow him to his room. Once we stood there in his room he pointed out to the present that I gave him, it was opened up. I was confused and asked myself what he was trying to show me by this, but before I was able to ask him anything he answered my question.

"The present that you gave me, it is so perfect Jon. In fact it is even to much, much more than I would ever deserve. The frame, the T-shirt, all of those things are perfect just like you. I don't even understand why you were even giving me this after I have treated you so horrible. How could you even think that I deserved all of this?" Eduardo explained himself and then asked me seriously before he waited for an answer from me.

At first I didn't knew how to answer him, but then I decided to tell him the truth. "Well, I saw that you were mad at me so I bought you all of this because I just felt bad about messing everything up all of the time. I just wanted us to get along again because I still saw you as a friend." I simply spoke out the truth. Eduardo then hugged him again and right after this I was able to hear him cry again. I was genuine confused.