Behind the Smile | TodoBakuDeku | Book 1

Chapter 15

Midoriya's POV

"You...l-love us?" Todoroki whispered almost to himself.

I jolted up, knocking Kacchan's arm off me in the process. "Crap, no I was...he...ugh! Let me–" Being smooth was not a quality I possessed.

"So, no you don't love us then?" the bicolored boy responded oddly, looking down at his now fidgeting hands.

Shit! Shit! Shit! What do I do now? He looks so upset. He hates me...he's disgusted and hates me!

"Great, now you've really done it," Dark Deku chided. "Now that the cat's out of the bag, they are definitely going to hate you. Looks like your precious Todo might already! They're going to think your nothing more than a puny little fag!"

I tried my best to ignore that evil piece of shit in the corner, but it was hard. "Would they really hate me? Would they find me gross? It's not like I ever hid the fact that I go both ways. It shouldn't be that much of a shock. Then again, it's one thing to be attracted to guys and girls, but to love two people? Is there something wrong with me. Am I just a giant slut? Shit, there must be–"

Todoroki reached out to grab onto my trembling hands, lacing our fingers together. "Shhhh," Todoroki cooed. "Your mumbling again. Take a breath. I'm not going anywhere, okay?"

"I call bullshit!" Dark Deku trotted closer with his violent purple eyes baring down at me. "He's just trying to find the easiest way to let you down. We all know you're a fat crybaby. He just doesn't want to deal with the waterworks."

"No," I replied almost inaudibly my attention facing the corner of the bed where he stood. "That can't be true..."

"Midoriya, is he here right now? The ah, other you?"

I didn't know how to answer. If I said yes, he'd know I was lying about having that demon under control, but I don't think I have it in me to keep lying to him. "Yes," I breathlessly muttered through sniffles. "He says you find me disgusting for...for wanting to be with you and...wait is Kacchan still sleeping?"

I turned to see Kacchan sprawled across the bed, a tiny puddle of drool collected on the pillow as he snored.

"His alarm didn't go off yet. I'm not sure anything else will wake him. He's dead to the world from 9 pm until 6 am." Todoroki responded matter-of-factly.

How does he even know that??

"Back to you, though, Midoriya. I could never hate you or think you are disgusting. Especially not for something like who you fall in love with," Todoroki's face flushed at the last part.

"Oh, I get it! He just wants to use you. He knows your a slut and wants to fuck you senseless before leaving you to pick up the pieces," Dark Deku hissed.

I gasped at the harsh filth leaving that demon's mouth and silently cried to myself.

"Ignore him," Todoroki said firmly.

"It's not that simple. He's here nearly all the time. The things he says. I can't take much more." My head faced down in shame, with a shadow over my eyes. Todoroki delicately placed his hand under my chin and raised it to look directly into his breathtaking eyes. He leaned in slowly, inch by inch until I could feel the warmth of his breath against mine. Everything else around me seemed to fade. It was just him and me; the only thing I could hear was the sound of my heart beating out of my chest. As tenderly as possible, Todoroki pressed his soft lips to mine, before leaning back to look into my eyes once more.

"Midoriya, I've been waiting so long for you. Ever since the sports festival. You helped me regardless of what it meant for you. You made me a better hero and a better person. How could I not love you?"

Without hesitation, our lips crashed together, this time with a passion far greater than I could have imagined. Todoroki slid a hand around the small of my back pulling me that much closer. Moving from the middle of the bed, I found myself on his lap, us only stopping to catch a much-needed breath. He placed his forehead against mine, as we gazed into each other's lustful eyes. We were so lost in the moment, that we didn't hear Kacchan's alarm go off.

"What the hell is this?" He growled, springing up from the bed. Before Kacchan could take another step towards the door, Todoroki reached out and pulled him back. "Would you just listen for once, hothead?"

"Rather a hot-head than a muscle relaxing cream, Icy Hot bastard!"

As they bickered, I noticed Dark Deku was gone. "The only other times he'd ever leave were when I..."

"What was that, nerd?" Bakugo asked without hiding the slightest bit of agitation.

"The other me...Dark Deku. He went away," I repeated in disbelief. "Normally, I have to..." my thoughts trailed as I looked down at the bloody bandages that encased both arms and abdomen.

"Midoriya, I'm so sorry this is happening to you, but we will do everything we can to stop this!" Todoroki said firmly, as he gently pulled me back in for a much-needed embrace.

Kacchan just stood there grumbling, "I thought you said you had that bastard on lockdown. Was that a lie?"

"Yes," I admitted. I thought I could handle him, but it's all just too much anymore. I broke down, sobbing into Todoroki's chest, which is when Kacchan's entire demeanor shifted. He had been angry and hurt but now it seemed like he wanted to comfort me, too. At the time, I thought iKacchan caring to that extent was improbable. Yet, he wrapped his strong arms around both me and Todoroki, before ruffling my hair, then resting his head on mine.

"No more lies okay nerd?"

"I promise," I mumbled. "No more lies."

And with that, Kacchan let go. "So...were you two planning to fuck when I was sleeping right next to you or what?"

"KACCHAN!!" I gasped, my face flushed a shade of red I didn't even no was possible. "We were just–"

"You would have been welcomed to join if you didn't need your beauty rest, princess!"

"TODOROKI!!! Kacchan, I swear we were just..." I honestly had no idea what we were about to do, or where we would have drawn the line.

There was a long pause before, "I confessed."

Kacchan made a face I'd never seen on him before. "Uh, like I care! You two have a wonderful fucking life tog–" Kacchan's explosions were cut off by my meek words.

"I confessed that I love both of you."

"What?" Kacchan stood in disbelief. "Both...?"

I reached out for Kacchan's hand and pulled him back towards us. "Kacchan, I've loved you for as long as I can remember. We might have had our struggles and differences, but at the end of the day, no matter what, you were there."

"And Icy Hot, what are your feelings about all of this?" Kacchan asked as the pent-up rage melted away.

"For a long time, I thought you were just an asshole–"

"Oi, not cool," Kacchan retorted, while I snorted.

"--but you've grown on me. So much so that I also have feelings for you, too."

"You really have some way with words," Kacckan snickered. "But honestly, I feel the same."

Kacchan reached for our hands, intertwining them together. I was elated, feeling emotions other than sadness and dread for the first time in what felt like so long. It's almost as if I was able to forget about the quirk that was currently ruining my life and see only them. The two people who matter most to me.

I gave Todoroki another tender kiss before leaning in toward Bakugo. Just as our lips were about to graze one another–

SLAM!

The door flung open and in walked Recovery Girl.

"You've gotta be fuckin' kidding me!!!"