Through the dark

"We were just drunk"

the next day I wake up, changed into my bikini and went straight to the beach

I love the beach with all of my heart ,it's amazing

I lay down on my beach towel and read some chapters from my book

¨juul?¨ I hear random from someone behind me

¨oh hee pablo!¨ I say happy when I see him

¨I didn't scare you right?¨ he asks

¨a little¨ I laugh

¨so what are you doing here?¨ he asks

¨uhm just chilling you?¨ I ask

¨just going for a walk¨ he says

¨How was the restaurant yesterday?¨ he asks

¨Oh yeah good we went to the restaurant here on the beach¨ I say

¨Did you like it?¨ he asks

¨yeah the food was delicious¨ I say

¨I know¨ he laughs

¨but pablo why didn't you go with us? it isn't because of what happened that night right?¨ I ask

¨I thought I needed to give you some space and at the same time you could hang out with your brother¨ he says

¨okay what we did was dumb and we are never gonna do it again we were just drunk¨ I say

¨yeah you're right¨ he says

¨pedri would kill us¨ Pablo says

¨yep you're right¨ I say

¨so we are cool right? friends?¨ he asks

¨friends¨ I say

no pablo I don't want us to be friends. I want us to be more. I need us to be more

after that we just looked at the sea

I lay my head on his shoulder and he plays with my hair

¨ Are these bruises from James?¨ He asks

¨where?¨ I ask

¨on your leg and here one under your eye¨ he says while looking at it

Shit. I haven't put on any make-up so you can see it really good

¨oh I don't know¨ I say

¨juul..¨ he says

¨I should go¨ I say while I get up and grab my stuff

I'm never fast but now I really am

¨please juul¨ he says begging me to stay

¨Pablo I can't tell you because I just know if I am gonna tell you you are gonna tell pedri and I just can't talk bout it¨ I say

¨then we can talk about other things¨ he says

¨no pablo I really need to go now¨ I see as I walk away pretty fast

when I am back home I run to my room, close the door and let myself drop against the wall and started crying my eyes out

I am so happy Pedri is still sleeping because otherwise he would definitely hear this

when I calmed down a bit I look at my phone and see that pablo texted me

pablo: Hee Juul, are you okay?

me: yess i'm fine pablo
me: how did you get my number?

pablo: pedri gave it to me when we went to that party if you got lost or something