Through the dark

"You cried?"

When I wake up the first thing I do is shower and wash my hair. After that I blow dry my hair and put on some clothes and do my make-up.

I put some products in my hair and look at myself in the mirror one more time

¨I like your curls don't be so insecure about it¨ Pablo says

¨you scared the hell out of me. how long have you been standing there?¨" I say

¨Oh I didn't mean to scare you¨ he says

¨It's okay but do you really like my curls?¨ I ask

¨yeah they look amazing¨ he says

¨you're lying¨ I say

¨I'm not Julia¨ he says

¨Is Pedri already awake?¨ I ask

¨uhm no still sleeping on the couch¨ pablo says

¨that man sleeps on the couch more often than in his own bed¨ I laugh

¨that's true¨ Pablo says

We walked downstairs and Pablo made some breakfast.

¨don't you need to eat?¨ Pablo asks

¨Oh no I'm not hungry¨ I say

¨you need to eat¨ He says

¨If I'm not hungry I don't need to eat¨ I say

¨You need to eat three times a day¨ He says

¨I know I'll eat later¨ I say

¨alright¨ He says

I just drink my thee and watch him eat

"Do you have training today or?" I ask

"We have a photoshoot for the next collection" Pablo says

"Are you guys ever free?" I ask

"Tomorrow" he says with a little smile

"Wow" I say

In that time Pedri wakes up and also eat some breakfast

"You need to eat Julia" he says

"I'm not hungry" I say

"Stop Julia, I know you longer than today" he says

"What do you mean by that?" I ask

"You know what I mean" he says

He is right, I know what he means

"Come, eat an Apple" he says while he gives me one

"Thanks" I say

Okay now I can't hide it anymore. Pablo and Pedri are just storing at me right now

"Stop staring" I say

"Allright Allright" Pablo says

I took a small bite from the apple and there was a silence a really awkward silence

"I can't do this" I say while I run up upstairs

"Juul wait" I hear Pablo saying

After 10 minutes of something I hear a knock on the door

"Come in" I say and then pablo walked in

"Juul are you okay?" He asks while he sits down next to me on my bed

"Of course I am" I say while a tear left my eye

"No you're not" he says while he gives me a hug

after I calmed down I said ¨why did you come to check up on me?¨