Through the dark

I'm done with it

¨James is calling again¨ I say annoyed when I sit down on the coach

¨Don't pick up¨ Pedri says

¨I know¨ I say

¨You know he is only calling when he is drunk and alone¨ Pablo says

¨chill I am not gonna pick up¨ I say while I put my phone away

We just went on watching a random movie but then my phone rings again

¨Maybe it's important¨ I say

¨You are not gonna pick up¨ Pablo says

¨Oh I'm¨ I say while I stand up, pick up the phone and walk to my room

¨Julia don't do stupid things¨ I hear Pedri yelling from the living room

When I hear his voice I feel a shock going through my body

James: Julia..

Me: Why are you calling me?

James: You know about my mom right?

Me: Uhm yeah

I don't know where this is gonna go.

James: uhm how can I say this?

Me: Take your time, I have nowhere to go

James: alright, so yesterday it went really bad with my mom. She was already sick but it got very worse

Me: oh shit

James: yeah uhm

Me: it's okay take your time

James: She died last night

Me: James I'm so sorry I don't know what to say

James: It's okay it doesn't feel real to me too

Me: I'm so sorry for your lost James

We talked for 2 hours. I hope he feels a bit better now.

Then I hear a knock on the door

¨come in¨ I say and then Pedri opens the door

I thought it would be Pablo

¨Everything okay?¨ he asks

¨yeah fine¨ I say

¨Nah you cried what did he say?¨ Pedri asks

¨His mom died¨ I say while a tear left my eye

¨oh shit I'm so sorry¨ he says while giving me a long hug

¨Where is Pablo?¨ I ask

¨Oh he went home¨ he says

He went home without saying goodbye?

¨oh¨ I say a bit disappointed

¨I really wanna be there for james¨ I say

¨I get it but as your brother of course I don't want you to have contact with him but I think you should follow your thoughts and what you want I don't have a opinion¨ He says

¨Thanks¨ I say with a little smile

the next day I still haven't heard from Pablo

When I came downstairs from my room I saw Pablo?

¨Oh you're here?¨ I ask him

¨yeah¨ he says while avoiding eye contact

¨alright¨ I say simply

¨I'm gonna get ready¨ I say while I walk back upstairs again

I just wanted to escape from that awkward situation 

I was finding some good clothes to wear at the match I hear a knock on the door and this time it was actually Pablo

¨So you just left yesterday without saying goodbye?¨ I ask him a bit mad

¨You just left to call James¨ Pablo says

¨This got nothing to do with him¨ I say

¨this got everything to do with him¨ Pablo says while raising his voice

¨We just called nothing more¨ I say annoyed

¨how would you find it if I still had contact with my ex?¨ He asks

I was silence for a moment

¨yep that is what I meant¨ he says

¨You are really getting this jalouse about nothing?¨ I ask

¨Yes I'm Juul¨ he says

¨Calm the fuck down¨ I say

¨No I'm not¨ he says

at right at that moment I got a text. yeah you can already guess it it was from James

¨You know what, now I'm done with it. We're over¨ Pablo says

¨wait what are you saying?¨ I ask him

¨You heard me¨ He says while he walks out of the room

¨fine¨ I say as I close the door and crawl in bed

then Pedri comes into my room and says ¨Hee, I heard about you and Pablo¨

I nod and he says ¨I'm sorry but if you still want to go we have leave in 5 minutes¨

¨I think I will stay home¨ I say

¨It's okay I will text you when I leave¨ he says with a sad smile

¨Okay good luck¨ I say

¨thanks¨ he says while he leaves and walks downstairs

I watched the game from home on the coach with just a blanket and with chocolate ice

I cried my eyes out while watching the game and Pablo was getting mad about each little thing like calm down

¨Yeez Pablo chill¨ I mumble to myself

but why would I care? We're over now.

When Pedri came back I was already asleep