Through the dark

if your not ready for that

¨So because we're all free this weekend, we want to go on a weekend trip with the team. Do you want to go with us?¨ Pedri asks me

I hesitate and Pedri says ¨I get it if you don't want it because of Pablo you know but I think it will be fun¨

¨I will come, you're right it will be fun¨ I say with a little smile

¨Good I will add you to the group¨ Pedri says

¨Where are we going?¨ I ask

¨We booked a villa on the other side of Spain, it's only 2,5 hours away from our parents so I am going to visit them. Do you wanna come?¨ Pedri asks

¨I don't know we will see¨ I say and Pedri nods with a sad smile

¨We don't have to stay too long just for some dinner or something¨ Pedri says and I nod

yeah dinner is a great option Pedri.

¨I'm going to the mall for some clothes for the trip. Do you need something?¨ I ask

¨Uhmm no but if you see something just send a picture¨ Pedri says and I nod and leave

I bought a dress, 2 skirts, a crop top and lastly I bought a bikini. I also took some little things with me like sunscreen and some make-up to take with me and a polo for Pedri.

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Today we are leaving for our trip!!

I pack my stuff and close my suitcase and then we have to leave already

¨I'm ready¨ I say as I walk downstairs and almost fall with my suitcase

I quickly put on my shoes and walk to the car where Pedri was already sitting

¨We have to pick up Pablo and Eric first¨ Pedri says

¨Alright¨ I say and nod

We picked them up and started to drive. It's a long ride so we talk a lot!

¨What are we gonna do?¨ I ask

¨Uhm I think a lot of drinking partying and football¨ Eric says

¨and we probably will just go to the city but not all at the same time because the fans¨ Pablo says and I nod

¨So Julia, you and Pablo broke up?¨ Eric asks

Okay this is a very weird question because literally the whole team knows it and PABLO IS SITTING RIGHT NEXT TO ME

I quickly look at Pedri and Pablo and then say awkwardly ¨Yeah uhm we broke up¨

¨Oh and no new boyfriend huh?¨ Eric asks

¨Uhm no I'm single¨ I say and I get uncomfortable

¨We should talk about an other subject¨ Pablo says probably noticing

¨So what do you wanna do this weekend, Juul?¨ Pablo asks

¨Uhm I don't really know I just go with the flow I guess¨ I say

After a lot of talking and luckily after a while Eric fell asleep so it wasn't that awkward anymore, we finally arrived!!

We were the first ones that arrived so we got to choose the best rooms!!

Me and Pablo ran upstairs like we were like 5 for the best room

¨I am sleeping here¨ I say as I walk in the best room like the bed is amazing, the view everything

¨wow, you literally choose the best room. I will sleep in this one¨ He says and he choose the room right next to me

I unpacked my clothes and then the rest arrived. When everyone had a room we ordered some pizza.

I didn't eat any of it and so far nobody noticed. I just talk a lot in these kinds of moments.

After everyone was done eating I went to my room and just laid down on my bed when I hear a knock on the door

¨Come in¨ I say

¨Hee¨ Pablo says when he walks in

¨Oh hee, what's up?¨ I ask

¨Here I made some fruit salad for you. I saw that you were uncomfortable¨ Pablo says while sitting next to me

¨awhh thanks¨ I say and I smile thankfully at him

¨I just need to say it¨ Pablo says

¨Yes tea now¨ I say while I take a bite from the salad

¨How weird was Eric acting on the way?¨ Pablo says

¨Omg yes I was so glad he fell asleep¨ I say and we both laugh

¨Do you want to play some football outside?¨ I ask him

¨Is that even a question?¨ Pablo asks and I laugh

¨Not too long, you still need to do easy¨ He says

¨Yeah¨ I mumble

We play some football outside and everyone joins. After a while some went to their room and the rest just drank some drinks

¨Julia, tomorrow I'm going to mom and dad¨ Pedri says

¨I will come with you¨ I say and he gives me a happy smile

For the rest of the night we drank a bit and just went to sleep. The next day I wake up and changed into a dress.

This is the first time I'm going back there after I was there alone. I don't want to go back there.

I start crying and then I hear a knock on the door

¨Are you awake? I needed to ask from Pedri¨ Pablo says while opening the door a bit

¨Oh Juul¨ He says when we sees that I'm crying and we walks up to me

I give him a long hug and I think I really needed that

¨It's gonna be fine Juul. What's wrong?¨ Pablo asks

¨I don't want to go back¨ I say while I let go off the hug

Pablo wipes my tears away and says ¨If you really don't want you don't have to, If your not ready for that¨

¨I need to go I can't stay away forever but I'm so freaking scared¨ I say

¨Juul take a deep breath, Pedri is gonna be with you the whole time¨ Pablo says

¨But Pedri doesn't know anything¨ I say

¨I can come with you if you want?¨ He asks

¨You really don't find it a problem?¨ I ask

¨No I will come¨ Pablo says

¨thank you¨ I say and I rest my forehead on his shoulder

¨everything for you¨ he says

¨You know Pablo, I'm happy that we can just act normal¨ I say while I look him deep in the eyes

¨Me too¨ he says with a little smile

I fix my make-up and then we drive to our parents