Still Amazed (Urban)

The Engagment Disaster.

CHRIS
*One week later*

"You ready for tomorrow?" Cater asked, as we got ready for my engagement party.

"I'm always ready." I responded, not wanting to tell them how I really feel.

A week ago I was so sure about Tiff, but as the days went by, I started to have cold feet.

"Ma would of been so happy right now, jumping for joy and crying at the same time." Cam spoke, almost at a whisper.

Talking about our mom takes me to a dark place, I couldn't help but smile because it's true. Our mom, Chrissy, was always emotional when it came to us.

She always told us, we were her life and the thought of us growing up made her cry. Now that I'm almost a married man, I would kill to have my mother here for this moment.

"Yeah," I responded. "That was Chrissy, always crying." I joked. My attempt to not be sad.

"If mom was here, she would of cried for a week straight because her baby is leaving her." Cam recalled. "Remember when Cater had a lil girlfriend in fifth grade and mom came home crying, telling us that we are growing up too fast."

"Remember when you got in the car after school and you asked Ma if you were really her son and wasn't adopted?" I asked Cam, while he fixed the bow tie around his neck.

"Bro I was only confused. Why y'all gotta be the light skins?" He shrugs.

We laughed in unison. He always wondered why he doesn't have the colored eyes and isn't as light as us.

Talking about our memories with Chrissy made me happy rather than sad at this moment.

"Man I miss her," I confessed. Usually I cut the conversation short when the topic starts. But truth be told, I'm scared to accept her death. I don't want to.

"Don't we all." Cater said as he wiped his eyes.

I went over to the bed, where Cater was, and hugged him. Her sudden death still affects us in every way.

"Although it's hard to believe that she's gone. we should look at the positive side of life." I told him as I wiped a tear from my eyes.

The hardest part about death is mourning and moving on. Especially if it's a family member or a loved one.

KOURTNEY
I looked at myself in the mirror loving my dark look. Everything about this black look showed how I felt.

"Kourt, you are looking stunning." Grace said, as her eyes trailed down my body.

"But I feel like shit." I looked down.

Ever since I got an invitation to his stupid engagement party, I fell into a mini depression.

How could all these emotions come back in a matter of months?

"It's okay Honey, trust in the Lord and He'll bring you someone better." She said, bringing me into a warm embrace. "Trust me, if it was meant to happen, it will."

Once again, Grace was right. I can't stop my life just because Chris is moving on with his.
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The drive to the venue was nerve wrecking, it took an hour to get there. My hands couldn't stop sweating, my stomach was twisted into knots and my pulse started beating fast.

We walked inside the venue, it's more of a five-star restaurant, with a bar in the middle. Everything was neat, the decorations were beautiful, everyone looked classy.

There's guests finding their seats, and some at the bar. Every one seemed to be enjoying themselves. I spotted Chris talking to a guest, Welcoming them with hugs and kisses. He looked very handsome, my eyes couldn't help but to wonder down his body.