Is It Really Worth It? -Depressed Deku [ON BREAK/HOLD]

Ch. 28

Deku's POV

Moving into the dorms was as exciting was it was tiring, and by the time everyone had their stuff moved in and basic rules were applied (because teens all living together need SOME structure or ends it'll be a disaster by the next day) and everyone was completely exhausted.

We had all decided (by we I mean the rest of the class) to have a giant sleepover in the shared living space. I didn't really want to go at all but it seemed weird to not at least show up for a bit. So in a short amount of time, blankets were laid out, there were tons of snacks and candy, and movies lined up to binge. As I sat there with my friend group, I mostly focused on the movie rather than talk with anyone around me. After a few hours pass and some people had already fallen asleep, I decided to get up and go back to my room and sleep there alone. I never wanted to be there in the first place and my presence just felt off, like me being there simply was an awful offense to those around me. As I left I saw Kacchan and Iida share a weird look as I left but I ignored them and they (and everyone else) didn't stop me from going. I flopped onto my bed and fell asleep almost instantly and was met with the peace of sleep.

The next day we all had to wake up bright and early for school, I wish they gave us the day off cause of moving in but I guess education is an important aspect of school or something like that. But luckily since it was a day after moving day most teachers seemed to take it easy on us for once, it was nice.

As we sat in Mr Aizawa's class (there were some students in 1B there too, which some found odd but I knew It was mostly likely a schedule conflict but still needing proper education credit, so most ignored them as they seemed to keep to themselves) with Mr Aizawa surprisingly being awake considering him patrolling last night, he announced that he had a small activity to join.

"Okay problem children, It's mostly just a fun and relaxed bonding time, to meet people and talk with friends. I hope to see some of you guys join as it will look good for the school to see 1A -and 1B- there, anybody?" He glances around and writes the names of anyone raising there hands, and he glances my way as I usually jump at these opportunities, but to me doing these events didn't matter to me anyone as I find myself wanting to do nothing but lay around most days. So instead I had my head down and didn't ask to join anything.

"Okay class that's a few people, glad that your interested. Now I want to sleep cause class is almost over. Don't both me, if you need help find someone else" he says.

As I prepare to either zone out my way through the rest of class or play some game on my phone, I see Todorki and a random student I didn't recognize from 1B turn towards me.

"Why didn't you join any of the activities?" He asks and I respond "oh this sort of activity isn't really my thing so I decided not too join Is all"

He looks confused. "But you always like to participate in ANY sort of stuff so you can spend more time with your friends? You used to talk about how much you enjoy that?" It took me a minute to respond. "Oh yeah I've just been really tired lately so I think I'm gonna skip"

Suddenly the 1B student decided that was his time to speak. "Oh come on! I hear about what you've been up to lately from others. Honestly why don't you do this stuff, I know you're not busy. I know YOU never doing anything at all anyways" (A/n: That line was almost the exact thing my friends recently said to me cause I don't do anything outside of school. Ngl those comments from them really hurt especially cause they keep saying it/bringing it up) 

Todorki responded before I could think of what to say. "That was rather rude..."

"Whatever! See you guys later I'm leaving early!" He says as he walks off. I figured that would be the end of it but Todorki had a weird look in his eyes, what's up with everyone having weird looks around me. He looks.. confused? Concerned? My thoughts were interrupted when he speaks again "Okay.. he was weird. Anyways can we talk later? Like soon? Like at lunch?"

Shit.

"Okay!" I force myself to say with a smile. "What about? Is everything okay?" "Yeah I just think we should talk about some stuff.." and I again force myself to respond. "We'll alright!" And he turns back around to pack away his stuff.

And as I heard the bell ring for lunch time I knew I'd half to put on an amazing performance.

SHIT.

Honestly if I pull this off I should quit school and become an actor

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Ayy you made it till the end, here's a cookie 🍪

Honestly writing this makes me cringe cause it finally hit me that people READ this

Anywayssss here's the chapter, I know it doesn't seem like it right now but this book is actually coming to an end soon

Btw in case it wasn't obvious this story has nothing to do with the actual plot/timeline or BNHA, it would have been exhausting trying to connect them and so that never was the plan, so if ur trying to connect this story ur to recent or past plot, ur out of luck lol. Also I can't remember if I ever made this clear but there's NO shipping in this story, apart from like side characters dating (like for ex. Uraraka and Tsuyu) there's not gonna be any dating between Deku and any of these characters, there just supportive friends

Bye! <3