Is It Really Worth It? -Depressed Deku [ON BREAK/HOLD]

Ch. 14

Previously: "hi Kacchan! So what did you want to talk to me about?"

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Deku's POV

I said, hoping to hide my nervousness. Luckily Kacchan doesn't seem to notice and starts to speak. "LISTEN NERD! I don't know what's going on, but obviously something is up! You're making everyone worried, including me and even that Half and Half has been worried! " Kacchan shouts. What? Todoroki? Kacchan? There all worried about me? I thought I hide it. Dammit, all I do is mess things up! I couldn't even hide this from my friends and now look what I've done! I guess to hide this I'm gonna have to do better....

Do better.

Do better. That's all I've been trying to do. I've been trying so hard to BE BETTER but I'm not. Why do I have to mess everything up? I'm supposed to be happy. I can't let them be worried. I can't do that to all my friends. What would they think of me?

I start to quietly zone out thinking about these things until Kacchan started asking again. "HELLO!? I'm talking to you!" "Oh yeah, sorry. I was just thinking about something" I mutter. " But anyways, I'm completely okay. I don't know what you're talking about but you don't have to worry!" I say with my usual bright (and fake) smile.

"STOP LYING! You're not okay! WHAT IS GOING ON! Let me help!" He suddenly shouts. I was so surprised by this outburst. I mean, it's Kacchan. But still.

"L-listen. Everything is FINE. I don't need help. Now if that is all you wanted to say to me than I'm leaving." I say as I started to walk away, feeling really done with Kacchan for not excepting my lie that I was okay. But.... it was kind of... nice. Don't get me wrong, I would rather die than burden someone else with my problems, and although I don't want others to find out about everything it was nice he noticed it.

That's the weird thing about me. I'm so scared that this is how it is to be like for me forever, and I be so happy to just finally get this off my chest. But if anybody asks, I would continue to state how I'm okay.Or make some joke to let people know I'm happy, when the truth is that I'm not as happy as I pretend to be.

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Hello!! I changed the cover image as you can see. I really like it but I might change it again though since it isn't a sad Deku image but I really like it soooo :pp. Also, like I have said MANY times before, the image is not mine in any way! Credit to the rightful maker :)