Is It Really Worth It? -Depressed Deku [ON BREAK/HOLD]

Ch. 23

Deku's POV

Once the entire class 1A got changed into our hero suits we headed outside for training where Aizawa was already waiting for us. We were all chatting amongst ourselves anxiously wondering what we were going to be doing today. Well, that is until Aizawa started speaking in his tired voice. 

"Alright today you will see how your quirk and fighting skills react with other quirks and fighting skills. This means you will be sparring against someone you normally wouldn't be chosen to train against. And no Mineta, you will NOT be teamed with a female student unless you want one of them to murder you and I'll be conveniently looking away meaning I wouldn't see a thing. Now other then this, there will be no serious harm against the other opponent, got it?" 

we all replied with yes and he continued talking this time while looking at a piece of paper.

"Alright the teams are: 

Ashido and Yaoyorozu

 Iida and Sero

Tokoyami and Kaminari

Satou and Ojiro

Midoriya and Kirishima

Kouda and Tsuyu

Aoyama and Todoroki

Hagakure and Shouji

Uraraka and Jirou 

Bakugou and Mineta"

These were some strange teams .

Kacchan didn't seem to mind the teams. "YEAH BRING IT ON! I'm going to beat this perverted-grape asshole!"

This caused Mineta to start running away terrified while Kacchan chased after him while screaming loudly about respecting women. 

"Well isn't this off to such a GREAT start.." Aizawa states sarcastically. 

But all I could focus on was that Kirishima and I were partnered to be teammates for training.  I mean, he's cool and everything but.. "Why?'" I guess I didn't realize I said that out loud. 

Stupid Deku

"Cause your quirks are very different. You need to learn to fight with different people regardless of their quirk power and learn to manage and plan out strategies. Aizawa answered calmly. "You should have noticed this already I'm surprised you didn't. Well I guess you're too distracted to realize it. Now do you have anymore useless questions or can we begin?" 

"N-no !I don't I'm s-sorry!"

huh

He's right..... I should have noticed that..... why didn't I realize it? Is my mental health getting in the way of school? No, it couldn't. It CAN'T. Not after I worked so hard to be here. I'll figure something out I always do. I HAVE to. 

(a/n omg meeeee. My mental health is getting in the way of school and it honestly scares me a lot how little i care about it. i found out at the same time that i did AWFUL on 3 tests and some work,and i didn't care one bit. That isn't like me??)

((((time skip too after the fight cause its not important)))))

The fight was finally over between Kirishima and I. In the end neither of us really won, we were just practicing i guess. 

Neither of us were very hurt, a few bruises and cuts here and there but not bad. 

Both of us walked together to the changing rooms while making small talk. 

"Hey Midoriya, are you going to go to recovery girl? You got a bit hurt during the fight." So I responded, "No, I think I can handle this myself. I've been through worse, we all have."

"yeah I guess your right..."

"Midoriya?" He asked. "mhm?" He continued to speak. "I just wanted to let you know that I'm here if you need to talk. I'm not the best person in the world but I used to have some bad habits in middle school, you know? Me being insecure and bullied and all. I did some stuff that I regret now, and I haven't done said things in a long time and I plan on keeping it that way. My point being that don't be afraid to express yourself, and it gets better. You might not believe me, but it does."

"I-" I couldn't find the right words to say. Wow what an idiot!

"What brought this up?" I finally said. "Oh its was Katsuki. He's been really worried about you lately."

"Really?" 

"Yeah. Bakugou " He seemed to catch the fact that he called Kacchan, Katsuki. I wonder what's going on between Kacchan and Kirishima?

"Kacchan shouldn't be worried about me. And neither should you."

"But Bakugou talks on and on about how you don't ask for help but he doesn't really go into detail. Midoriya, asking for help when you need it is manly!"

I chose to ignore most of what he said. "Don't you think the obsession of 'manly'  is a little strange?"

What about your obsession with AllMight? I'm convinced you'd fight someone just to get some AllMight merch?"

I laughed. "fair. I guess we'll call it even?"

"You mean the training fight or calling out weird obsessions"

"Both?

"Sure! deal."

And with that, we went our separate ways.

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I don't even know what to say anymore I'm so sorry. 

But it doesn't really matter. Have a good day/night. Take care of yourself, you deserve it <3

Keep safe, and wear a mask

Bye