Is It Really Worth It? -Depressed Deku [ON BREAK/HOLD]

Ch. 16

Umm... this is really LONG chapter (at least, at lot longer than usual in this book, I don't think I have ever posted a more than 1,000 words on a chapter before but this has more than 2,000 words) I don't know why I made it so long, I just did  :pp

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Deku's POV

The weekend had passed and I had time to think, ALOT. I was at first kinda happy but its like my mood completely changed. I first thought it wouldn't be a big deal if they knew but then I started to think about how they will try to help me, which freaked me out since I don't want help. And then I started to wonder if they will tell anybody such as teachers or even my friends. But then I reminded myself the Iida was a good person and even Kacchan wouldn't do something like that.

It was early in the morning and I started to get ready for school, doing my normal routine of getting ready but also adding time to re-treat my cuts. They seemed to healing and they weren't infected so that was good since if they got seriously infected I could need to go to the hospital which would cause more people  to find out about my problems. But I still can't help but randomly think that I wished I had done it right, but I shouldn't be thinking about that. Im okay, right? This was just a couple slip ups and nothing more, right? Yeah, just slips ups. I'm happy, I'm okay. Yeah. I don't know why I still try to convince myself these things. I continued and cleaned my wounds, applied some ointment, and re-bandage my arm.

I left for school not long after that. The reason why I woke up earlier was so I could avoid talking to Iida. I didn't know what I would say, so I tried to avoid him on the way to school.

Morning classes go normally. Iida was there and it seemed like he wanted to talk to me but he didn't have the chance to since today was extra loud and busy. After some time we all had a small break to do whatever we wanted before lunch started.

It was then when Iida approached and sat down next to me. I was panicking one the inside but I looked fairly calm on the outside. He stated speaking.

"Listen, Midoriya. I am deeply sorry for what I said at your home. It was completely my fault and I am very regretful for saying the things I did. I was frustrated, thinking that you couldn't see the true affects of your action if you had succeeded, which I am very glade that you did not. I now understand that you fully new the affect of your actions and still proceeded with them, showing that you obviously need assistance and a friend to lean on. I'm again very sorry and I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me for my awful words."

I was speechless. Here I was thinking he would want nothing to do with me, yet he is apologizing.

"Iida, you don't need to apologize. In the corner of my brain I knew you were just letting emotions get the best of you. But at the same time, thank you so much for this apology. And if your apologizing the guess I need to apologize to you for snapping at you." He seemed confused that I was saying sorry.

"You don't need to apologize for that since I was the one truly in the wrong but if it makes you feel better than yes I forgive you. So, we're good? Friends?" He asks with hope. So I respond.

"Yeah, friends." I still wonder why he just didn't give up on me.

After that things were calm between us. We continued to make small talk about nothing in particular. We weren't shouting or anything before, but you could tell we were talking about something important.

Suddenly, Uraraka and Tsu walk towards us, hand-in-hand. "Hey guys!! What's up? You two looked like you were disputing. What were you guys talking about?" Uraraka asks curiously. "Oh nothing, just a small dispute over classes. I was wrong about something and I didn't realize it until Iida asked me about it" I say, not wanting to say the truth. "Oh okay, well if that was it then come on! Let's go to lunch!" And then Iida and I (and later Todoroki) are being pulled toward a table once we had gotten our food.