𝐈𝐓𝐒 𝐉𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐀 𝐊𝐈𝐒𝐒 // 𝐉𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐧 𝐖𝐚𝐥𝐭𝐨𝐧✰

25-I can't handle change✯

I BEGIN TO SHAKE FOR NO REASON AT ALL

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Jaden POV:

I fucked up. I should have told her. Jeffrey was right. I indeed lost her. What am I talking about and why am I still standing here, cursing myself, instead of running after her?!

She disappeared five minutes ago behind the trees of our school. I'm not exactly running but I'm walking at a very fast speed. I don't see her anywhere. I decide to look for her in the gym but she really is nowhere to be found. I spot a different person in the crowd. I take her arm and drag her away down in the hallways.

"Easy there baby."says Coco as she looks me up and down.

"I'm not your fucking baby! What's wrong with you? Telling Y/N everything even though you knew I wanted to do that on my own? I might've messed up first but you messed up worse! Thanks to you, I've lost the only person who truly understood me."

"Pff you were together for less than two weeks!"

"And yet she still knows me better than you do. The only thing you've been doing lately is oppressing me."I shout in her face and sense how her rage is escalating.

"That's because I want you!"she shouts back at me with her eyebrows furrowed.

"After everything you did tonight? Not even in your dreams."I say calmly which seems to upset her even more.

"Uh you know you said you wouldn't want to fall in love ever again after Ava. You were all like 'Love doesn't exist' " she imitates a manly voice "and look at you now. Telling the first girl you see on the street you love her only after 2 weeks. You are pathetic and I feel sorry for you."she gets closer and closer to my face until I feel her breath on my neck.

I laugh before saying:" You feel sorry?For me?"

"Uhm yeah. You're delusional as fuck. She kissed you once and you think she rocks your world. Jaden it was just a fucking kiss. It's just a kiss."

"It's not just a kiss." I sigh, realizing she's not getting a single thing of what I'm saying.

"Listen, Y/N and I haven't always been on the best terms. That Kiss made me realize that the girl standing in front of me wasn't that little annoying girl with braces anymore but so much more. Like a world I discovered and need to know more about. So please never refer to it as just a kiss, because it wasn't."

At that, she remains silent. She looks down and bites on her lip.

"So you really do love her, huh?"she says,now softly.

"Yes.."I answer and sigh once again, releasing all the air I was holding back in my lungs.

"So it was like love at first sight?"she smiles. I think she might've understood where I was coming from with my subjectively real statement.

"I'd rather say it was love at first Kiss." at which she laughs.

"Look I'm sorry I didn't realize how important she was to you. I should have let you do your thing."

"Thank you for apologizing."

"Oh and by the way I saw Y/N walking toward the park. I understand if you don't want to forgive me, because if I were you, I honestly wouldn't either but I figured this might help."she gives me a reassuring smile which I return.

I start running away, I look back at her and shout:"Thank you!"

I'm already at the door and I think I hear her scream:"Go get your girl!"

I don't think I've ever run this fast. Once I'm there I'll make everything all right again. I'll tell her why her parents did it and why I agreed to do it. I'll try to explain to her how important she is to me even if it'll be hard because the things I feel when I'm around her are indescribable.

I run in the park. There is little to no one, except for a Man with his little chihuahua.

She's not sitting on any bench nor at any trees. I decide to check out the playground. And there she is. The most beautiful girl in the world. My stomach twists when I realize who she's with.

"I just wanted to let you know that you,Y/N, have always been the one on my mind." I hear Javon say.

I clench my fist. I'm trying to hold back. You may ask yourself what I'm trying to hold back? Well a lot of things. I'm trying to hold back my anger but mostly my tears and they are begging to be let out.

The smile she gives him makes my head spin. What was he trying to do?

I'm clenching my jaw so hard, I think I might dislocate it. Her mascara is smudged all over her eyes and all I want to do is hold her and comfort her. To tell her that I'm sorry. To prove how sorry I am, I'd even cut my veins in front of her.

I can't stand watching them anymore. If I do, I'll explode. I won't be able to hold back my anger and I will punch him. Hard.