Not made for me - Minsung

Chapter 18

Rejection was hard.

When Minho arrived home, he quickly walked to his room, shutting the door and going to his bed. He sobbed for hours, the pain in his heart not soothing. How come love could hurt so much when all he did was wanting it.

He wanted Jisung. He wanted to make him happy so much.

He wasn't mad at him, he was mad at whatever the fuck it was going through his mind. It was so obvious that they liked each other and it was so unfair that they couldn't be together, the thought breaking him more and more.

For the following weeks, Minho had been sulking hard.

The first days were the worst. Minho kept closed in his room, not even letting Hyunjin enter it, the poor boy was worried to death. He quickly understood that it had something to do with Jisung, but he wanted to comfort the older.

When Minho finally decided to leave his room, he opened up to Hyunjin, and it broke the latter's heart. Minho seemed so pure in what he felt for Jisung, he loved him so much, his pained face and the tears rolling down his face made Hyunjin's heart flip.

After some time, Minho had agreed to go out again, meeting with the others and Jisung. At first it was really awkward between the two, but Minho had never shown him how pained he was. He hid it, he was scared to hurt Jisung. He was scared that Jisung would feel guilty and he wanted none of that. He played along, doing as if the situation unfazed him, even though anyone could see right through him.

Jisung knew, even if Minho hid it. And Jisung did feel bad. But he didn't know what to do, he was splitted between the voices in his head and the pain in his heart. He had never felt like that before, pure confusion in his mind.

It started feeling less awkward between them as time passed by, but it was never like before. Minho was reluctant to get touchy with him, he knew he would feel things if he did and was scared to lose his facade. Jisung was dreading to feel the other's touch, even if it was just a handshake. But he knew his boundaries. He rejected him, he had no rights to hurt him even more.

Hyunjin tried everything, he tried to talk with Minho, telling him to not give up because he was the only one who got that far with Jisung, but Minho didn't want to hear any of it. He tried to talk to Jisung, to make him realize that he could be happier with Minho, but he didn't think he was able to.

And it stayed like that for weeks.

Until that day, when Minho got out of Chan's house and was going back home, his heart was still hurting because he had seen Jisung.

He crossed her paths. Haelyn's.

She talked to him, lulled him in. She took advantage of his weak mental and heart to ask him out on a date, and the desperate Minho accepted. Of course he would accept. He just needed something to soothe his heart, and he thought that maybe she could help, maybe she could make him think about other things. He didn't think much of her, he didn't even like her, but she was there and he thought it was enough.

With Jisung on his mind each time, they went on dates, many of them, until she got a grip on him and they got back together. Minho had accepted out of pure spite, knowing she wasn't the one he wanted, but still, she was there, and she was good at manipulating him.

One day, as Haelyn had just left Minho's house, Hyunjin got back at that very moment, seeing that snake coming out of his sacred house. He started fuming, he couldn't believe Minho had let that whore back in his life. When he got in, he saw a mindless Minho sitting on the couch, half naked and shameless, and it made Hyunjin's anger rise to the roof.

"Are you fucking out of your mind?" Hyunjin yelled approaching the boy

"Why are you yelling" Minho said uninterestedly. He knew why the boy was mad, and he knew the time where Hyunjin would nag him would come, but he couldn't care less.

"Tell why the fuck Haelyn just got out of my house" Hyunjin stated, almost spitting at him

"Because I invited her"

"And why would you invite that snake here?"

Minho wanted to laugh at Hyunjin's choice of words. He wasn't mad that he called his girlfriend a snake, it was pretty much the truth.

"Because she's my girlfriend" He answered, shrugging.

"You've definitely gone crazy, I'm calling the hospital" Hyunjin said, walking around the couch like a desperate madman. Minho hold back a laugh.

"Minho, this is pure sabotage, you know how she is" Hyunjin yelled again

"Yes" Mindo simply answered

"So why would you want that?" Hyunjin was desesperate, his roommate had completely gone crazy.

"I don't really care" He shrugged again

"Minho, she's fucking crazy, she'll hurt you again"

"She won't"

"How can you be so sure?"

"Because I don't care much about her" Minho said, as he was starting to get annoyed

"Then why are you with her?"

"Because at least I can fucking feel things back." Minho yelled back, now his annoyment becoming too much "Let me fucking breathe" He added as he stood up, joining his room and slamming the door.

Hyunjin sighed. He didn't know what to do.

When Jisung learnt that Minho was taken, he felt a wave of sadness engulf him.

He knew he deserved it, it was his fault. He knew that Minho would eventually fall out of love and keep going on with his life, but why did it hurt so bad?