All I've Ever Known

15 - Harry

Harry woke up to a pile of messy hair stuck against his cheek and a snoring Louis on his chest. He sunk in further to the mattress and let himself feel safe in Louis arms and begun to think about everything that has happened lately. It had only been a week today since the two were re-united, but to Harry it had felt like a lifetime already. He and Louis had moved so fast in just a few short days and Harry was scared. Terrified even at the thought that this may not last. Instead of getting jumbled up into his own thoughts, he didn't want to have another embarrassing panic attack episode, he softly moved out of bed and went into the lounge opposite the kitchen.

He was thankful that this hotel room had a large grand piano as he was happy to be able to pour out all of his thoughts this morning. He teased the keys, finding the right notes as he pondered about him and Louis. He had been waiting for this for so long, had wanted to reach out for years and had written hundreds of songs, mostly unreleased, about his biggest insecurities. How Louis made him feel, how much he missed him, how much he loved him. One particular song that popped into Harry's head made him stop playing, he hadn't thought of this song that he had written a few years ago pretty much since then. Letting out a big sigh, he decided he needed to sing it, he needed to feel the emotions of the song as it summed up beautifully what he was thinking right now. He began to sing-

'I've been waiting

Every day since

The last time we met, I can't forget

What we parted ways with

I see your face and

Can't stop looking

I swear that these words haven't been heard

In the way I mean them

Is this really happening?

This is really happening

Can this keep on happening

Together we're alone

Both of us agreeing no one needs to know

That you're already home

You don't have to go

But you're already leaving, can we stop believing that

You're already home

You don't have to go

Cause you're already home

We can't sleep in

For good reason

A bottle of wine, pretending its fine

You breathe out, I breathe in

We've been stealing

Moments, feelings

We know it's not right, your car is outside

With a cold seat in

Is this really happening?

This is really happening

Can this keep on happening

Together we're alone

Both of us agreeing no one needs to know

That you're already home

You don't have to go

But you're already leaving, can we stop believing that

You're already home