All I've Ever Known

17 - Harry

Silence. Soft snores. Birds chirping sweetly. Is how Harry woke up this morning, wrapped tightly into Louis body, his naked back pressing against his boyfriend's warm chest.

"Hmm... morning sun" Louis groggily whispered

"G'morning" He groaned, rolling on to his back to be met with Louis' tussled bed hair, sleep filled eyes and pink plush lips.

The pair had somehow got themselves in to bed last night after getting a bit too sappy and much too wine drunk, forgetting about the fire and slowly progressing towards hypothermia. Yesterday played in Harry's mind as he and Louis laid there in each other's presence, sharing soft kisses and shy smiles. He knew three things for sure, one, he was so in love with Louis, two, Louis was a little bit broken, three, Harry was entirely ready to do whatever was possible to make Louis happy again. He remembered back to his conversation with Louis about his eating issues, but he was honestly not expecting to notice it so much and it be so prevalent every day. He just had to keep reminding himself that if it was slightly hard for him, it couldn't compare to what Louis was probably going through and how hard it is for him.

"What are you thinking about? I can see the clogs moving in your brain" Louis teased with a light chuckle. Harry hesitated, not wanting to make his boyfriend uncomfortable, he wanted this to be a nice morning, they had the cabin for the rest of the day until they left, and Harry had plans.

"Jus' thinking about us, you, me" Harry mumbled quietly, his eyes dropping to Louis' lips. God, they looked so inviting this early in the morning.

"What about us?" Louis said, his voice barely a whisper and uncertainty lacing his words.

"I just, I-I don't want, ugh-" Harry hesitated, rubbing his eyes of sleep and sat up slightly, Louis doing the same and biting the tips of his fingernails. Harry held his hand and pulled it to his chest, trying to ease off his boyfriend's nervousness as he continued.

"-I want to help you, Lou. I-I don't want you to push me away, I just- God, I love you so much and I want you to get proper help, I need you to get better and I want so much to help you and I just- promise me you won't push me away? Let me take care of you for once, please?" Harry flustered as he spoke, meaning every word and hoping that Louis would accept his help. The older lad never had been good at letting people take care of him, especially Harry.

"I'm trying, I-I really am, Haz. It's just so hard but I'll try, I'll try for you" Harry sighed out in relief as he pulled Louis on to his chest

"I know it is baby, just promise me you'll let me help when I can, I don't want to lose you and I don't want you to shut me out, okay? I'll love you no matter what, I'm not going anywhere" Harry finished with a kiss to Louis messy hair, he felt his boyfriend let out a sigh against his chest.

"I love you too, so much" Louis kissed his chest softly and cuddled in further, Harry was relieved that this hadn't ended in a fight. All he wanted was for Louis to be happy, he wanted to take away all of his pain, all his doubts and insecurities. He wanted to pamper him with love, make sure he always felt safe and never had any worries again for the rest of his days, but Harry would settle for Louis letting him in and not pushing him away, again.

"What do you want to do today?" Louis smiled up at him, Harry kissed him lovingly, his hand cupped under Louis jaw and stroking tenderly along his forming beard.

"That" Harry mumbled against his lips before capturing them together again, this time with a bit more force, pulling Louis up towards him so that he was straddling Harry's hips.