All I've Ever Known

20 - Louis

Louis flopped back into the bed of the hotel, the bright sun illuminating the whole room. They had a beautiful view here out onto the ocean of Main Beach along the shore of the Gold Coast, Queensland. He was so tired from the day so far; he and Harry had gotten up at around 6am as Harry had a radio interview which he did while Louis made them tea and some toast. After that was done they had been driven to the airport where they caught Harry's jet up to Queensland, the flight only taking a couple of hours. However, he was stressed over the coming and going, he and Harry had to make sure that they weren't seen together. This meant a lot of hiding, disguising himself and double checking all of the entrances, exits and hallways that he was in with the help of Harry's team.

Now they were finally able to rest, well for a while at least, Harry had sound check later that day and a show. Louis was excited to see him perform again, it had been too many days since the last concert and felt as though a lot had changed since then. He and Harry had declared their love for each other, he'd seen Harry have issues with his anxiety, and in turn told him about his eating disorder. They'd sung songs to one another about their breakup, had some serious conversations about it and what went wrong last time, and most importantly, he was Harry's boyfriend. He was so happy, ecstatic, drunk with love, words failed to describe how he felt lately.

"I. Am. So. Tired" Harry groaned each word in time with his four steps to fall onto the bed with Louis. Louis giggled quietly at his adorable boyfriend who had nuzzled his way into the blankets, pushing his body back to be spooned by Louis. He happily wrapped his arm around Harry's waist and intertwined their legs as they looked out the large window at the bright sun and ocean.

"What time do you have to go to soundcheck?" He asked, pressing their bodies together tighter until there was no space between them.

"Have to leave at like 4 I think? What time is it now?" Harry muffled, his head sunken deep in the pillow, Louis removed his arm for a second to grab his phone out of his back pocket

"It's almost noon now, I'm honestly so hungry but just don't want to move" Louis whined, tossing his phone and cuddling closer into his boyfriend.

"I'm glad you're getting your appetite back" Harry said nonchalantly, sighing slightly

He was too, although he didn't want to say it out loud, he hadn't been thinking about it too much. Not that he was actively trying not to think about his diet lately, it was beginning to be too easy just letting Harry take care of him. It had become somewhat of a routine again, even though being on the road with Harry wasn't a rudimentary routine. Still, he found over the last week he would get up and have a cup of tea, have something light like toast or eggs. Then lunch would come, and Harry would always make them something simple like sandwiches or wraps, dinner would be easy too – either whatever form of take away Louis was craving, or Harry would make something amazing if he wasn't too tired.

It all felt very domestic given the chaotic schedule of Harry's tour, he was glad though that Harry seemed to think he was getting better. Not that he explicitly said so, but Louis was accustom to reading between the lines with Harry, his actions had always spoken louder than words. Whether it was simple things like Harry making him a snack when his stomach grumbled, or distracting him for a good hour after every meal so that he wouldn't be consumed by thoughts of purging. He especially loved that Harry didn't seem to treat him any differently when they were eating though, he always just made light chatter, not observing him too much or making comments when Louis would push his food around the plate for too long. It was all really small, simple things that he was sure would go unnoticed by almost everyone. Except Louis, he noticed everything about Harry.

Like how he was almost definitely asleep right now, he could tell by the slight change in his breathing pattern and how his body had sunk deeper into the mattress. Deciding to do the same, Louis set and alarm, so they would wake up in time to get ready and let himself be soothed by the soft puffs of breath coming from Harry's mouth.