(Jesse)
March 11, 2015
My Biggest Fear
I have Atelophobia is the fear of not being good enough or imperfection. People automatically think that I'm perfect. They think everything I do is perfect, that I will go far in life and succeed in whatever I do.
People put so much pressure on me, I got to a point where I prefer myself to be perfect. if I don't you want to know if I'm disappointed in myself it's overcoming me it's eating me up inside. I don't want to be that is perfect I want to do that person then when you can see through all problems pressure on me.
I never said I was perfect. I never pretended I was perfect. But for some reason people just for some reason think that. Now matter where I go. If I do anything less than perfect that everyone is disappointed in me.
I could disappoint to me. I must have the perfect girlfriend. The perfect grades. For some reason I must be taken every expect. I'm afraid if I'm not perfect no one likes me, no will think I'm cool. I'm afraid no one would want to hang out with me. Even more than that and deeply afraid if I'm not perfect the one I love don't love me.
I'm afraid that is special to show me people think I'm a failure. A waste of space. So I everyday wake up I put on my mask and pretend to be someone else. someone that's perfect and everyone will like. I have Atelophobia.
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