Crush - Leah Williamson

3. I Have Questions

I Have Questions - Camila Cabello

"I feel doomed in hotel rooms
Staring straight up at the wall
Counting wounds and I am trying to numb them all

Do you care, do you care?
Why don't you care?
I gave you all of me
My blood, my sweat, my heart, and my tears"
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Time had passed and there were mere minutes left before my teammates from OL Reign arrived in London. We were set to play against Chelsea, PSG and Eintracht Frankfurt in friendly cup in preparation for the upcoming season in the US. Although I knew I was not returning to play with them.

I signed for OL Reign five years ago and I think I started to regret my decision on the third year. I was an Argentinian teenager unaware of how a professional environment worked. When I turned twenty it's when I started to realize I was far from wanted on that envious team. But at least I had Julie...

Until I hadn't.

However hard the breakup and following lies had been, I never stopped giving my all to football. I trained harder if possible, I stayed more hours than everyone but still every time coach said my name in the starting XI, it sounded as if she hated the idea of me on that pitch.

Although I dreaded seeing my so-called team again, there were some positive events I was looking forward to. The main one obviously being having Leah on the stands.

Last time I had spoken to her was when we arranged for her to come to my first game against Chelsea in two days. I was even more nervous now. Not only because of her presence but because she will be seated alongside Alexia and Mapi. And I was really afraid of the latter and her snarky comments.

These past few days Alexia, Mapi and I had rented a room in the same hotel my team would be staying. Every one-person-room had been occupied, so we were given one with a double bed and a smaller one. Of course, when we first came to the room Mapi had yelled and taken the single bed for her leaving the other one for Ale and me

"You know, I find it unfair you have a bed all for you María." I complained for the hundred time. I knew I was not very convincing of my discomfort as I laid cuddled in Alexia's chest

"I don't see you so dissatisfied after all, niña." She sat in her bed looking toward us. "If certain blonde wasn't in the picture, I would definitely suspect something there."

She signaled our way and she was not wrong. Many times before I had seen fan edits that suspected that me and Alexia were a couple. We were affectionate with each other, always hugging in public. In fact, our favorite plan was binge mystery series cuddled with her dog Nala

We had a sisterly type of relationship and never had I questioned it. Yes, Alexia was outstandingly beautiful and breathtakingly fit and she was definitely my type but I couldn't picture myself in love with her romantically.

On a friendship level, of course. Who could not fall in love with a woman that travelled across the world for two day to surprise me on my birthday? Or that had taken the time to make friendship bracelets with Barça colors because she heard me talk about them? She was my everything, always

However, it was not the first time that someone as close as Mapi had hinted our possible relationship. We groan exhausted for having to once again explain it to her

"Come on Mapi, how many time I have to say that she is like Alba for me." Alexia replied while leaving small caresses on my hair

"You are so stubborn sometimes." I said earning an exaggerated surprise gasp from Mapi. She could be a pain in the ass when she wanted.