DEAR OOSUN

Chapter 18

it's hard to turn the page

when you know someone

won't be in the next chapter,

but the story must go on.

NIKI's POV

It was a gloomy Tuesday that I knew that he was there, even if he wasn't. The sadness that wrapped my whole being fell away the moment I though of him. I browsed through the collections of our little moments, his pictures and few clips of him which I have taken secretly. Later on I found myself replaying clips of him over and over again just so I could hear his voice once more.

My sad thoughts ran away from me and for the next half an hour, all I did was grin, and laugh and giggle at his silliness, and just like that for a moment all my worries just magically disappeared.

It's been months since his disappearance. No one in the members knows the reasons. Company released a official statement about Sunoo taking a long leave to deal with his health issues. Fans were sad after the company's statement. "Get well soon Sunoo" trended for months in twitter, weverse and many other sites.

But no one heard anything from him. Neither did he replied anyone's message, nor did he returned anyone's calls. He was no where to be found. I went to his hometown in search of him but he was not there either. His parents looks as confused and worry as I was.

"Did you heard anything from the company?" I asked Won as soon as I saw him sitting beside me.

"No, no matter how much I try to ask, they don't say much." He said looking at his feet.

"But Manager Sejin told me that he is doing fine and he told me to tell our members to stop calling and messaging him so much." Won said timidly while taking snacks from his bag.

"When did he said these to you? Did they find his whereabout? Where is he now ?"I asked hastily and Won looked at me with his big eyes and worried expression.

"This is the reason why I don't like sharing these information to you. It doesn't take you a minute to do something crazy without thinking. You fought with Sunoo's personal manager more than ten times now. Company staffs are scared of you. They are worried that you will create some sorts of scene infront of cameras." He said looking directly into my eyes.

"I am not crazy. I won't do things that will hamper any members or the group. You have my word leader-nim. "

"Now can you tell me where can I found Manger Sejin? Is he in office?" I asked Won and he looks perplexed.

"He is at ICN Airport. But you can't go there." Won said holding my shoulders with his both hand as he saw me wearing my coat.

"Why? " I will try to meet him in a corner. No one will see me." I said while tying my shoe lace.

"Hyung, please... listen to me, right now airport is filled with reporters and fans. If you go there you face will be everywhere in social sites within minutes covered with tons of assumptions and lies." Won said while rubbing my shoulder.

"Manger Sejin will come to our dorm at evening. You can ask as many questions as you can later in the evening. for now please concentrate in your recording and photo shoots." Won said while playing with his hem of shirt.

"Ok, I will do my best." I won't go anywhere without informing you. I promise." I said after looking at his worried expression.

I did my best in every task I was supposed to do today. I record my part of song within minutes, our producer seems happy with the way my voice sounds. I did well in photography as well. But the photographer has mint chocolate keyring tied to his phone and the more I looked at it, the more it remind me of him.