Warning!
This chapter has some serious stuff in it so if you can't handle the thought of blood don't read.
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It's been a week. A week since tryouts.
A week since Shawn came.
A week since Zach has talked to me.
At school when he sees me he just walks away.
I seriously can't take this anymore.
I ask my mom about the online school thing and she actually let me so that's what I'm doing now. I'm writing a report on the computer for my online English I class.
I haven't been outside since that day either. The only time I come out of my room is to eat because I have a bathroom in my room.
Shawn and I decided that it wasn't a good idea to date since he's living with me and my mom adopted him. So now he's really my brother. We don't talk a lot because of football and the whole staying in my room thing. It's a good thing he's not one of those football players that has girls coming over every single night because his room is right next to mine.
I got bored writing my report that is due a month from now btw so I decided to find that spot I went to last week and just think. I put on some high waisted jeans and a crop top with a cardigan since it's a bit chilly out there. I threw on my black high top converse and walked out the door.
It was only 12 in the afternoon so it was pretty sunny outside but there was a slight breeze. When I got to the woods I just walked straight in and found the rock. My mind felt like it was literally about to explode. I had so much going on in it.
I haven't talk to Marie or Aza since that day either. I just don't feel like talking to anyone. They text and call but I don't answer because I just want to be by myself. I know I shouldn't be shutting them out because they are my best friends. Well they are my only friends right now. I want to hang out with them but my mind doesn't want me to talk to anyone right now.
I wish Zach would just talk to me. I wish everything would to go back to normal. I wish I wouldn't have tried to find Zach. I wish Shawn didn't stop me to talk. I wish I didn't kiss him back. I wish Nick and Rudan were down so that I could talk to them too but they wouldn't want to talk to me. I mean I did brake their best friend. I just want to fix everything.
After about 2 hours of me just sitting there thinking I decided to go home and go back to my room.
I walked back and just continued to think about random things. I wish Shawn an I were close so I could have someone to talk to at home when my mom isn't there but all he does is stay in his room or he's not even there. I don't know why he doesn't want to talk to me though. I did invite him to stay at my house so he didn't have to leave behind his football scholarship. Maybe I should try and talk to him too.
I walked up the stair to my room and locked the door behind me. I changed into some more comfortable clothes and continued with my report until it was time for dinner.
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Zach's POV:
(Bet you didn't expect that. Boom)
"Zach cmon! What's the matter with you! Get your head in the game! Kick the dang ball!"
I was now at soccer practice. I can't think straight since the last time I talked to Lashea. Marie told me that she asked her mom to let her do online school so she didn't have to come here anymore. Did I really make her quite school? I really miss her. I'm still mad that she kissed him back but she did say she only kissed him for a second and pulled away then slapped him. Maybe I'm just overreacting again.
