𝐴𝑙𝑙 𝐼𝑛 🤍 | 𝐼𝑡𝑠𝑏𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑠𝑠𝑠

Twenty Six

Ja'Nae Ameilah Remírez | Nae

"I just wanna be cordial" Daejah said as she held my car door open. I feel like I'm in a twilight zone and everybody's watching us

"Why?"

"Because I love you" she responded before I took a deep breath, "you look beautiful mama"

"Daejah I don't want to be seen with you. Can we be done with whatever this is?"

Everybody knows Daejah and I broke up, and I don't want anybody to see us and think otherwise.

She spotted me walking to my car and chased me down in the parking lot. She's fucking crazy.

"What the fuck you acting like you embarrassed of me for?" she asked causing me to finally make eye contact with her

"You're really sick" I chuckled a little because she's really playing dumb

"Just talk to me and stop being so stubborn"

"I don't wanna talk right now, tomorrow, or ever" I said before my phone vibrated and I looked at it to see it was Ray.

"Unblock me" Daejah said as I began to feel my body become shaky, "Why you acting like that?"

"You played in my face, took advantage of me and I still loved you. You cheated and I took you back every time. Daejah that shit hurt and even today, I wouldn't do you how you did me. Don't ask me why I'm acting like this"

I didn't realize I was crying until a tear fell on my arm. I can't believe this is happening right now.

"I apologized, I don't know how many times you want me to apologize. I'm not gone keep saying sorry"

Okay.

"Move away from my car before I act like a crazy person" I said while starting the car up, she moved out of the way

I shut the door and watched as she walked away. I couldn't help but to break down and cry. I'm nothing but good to people and I get treated like shit.

I quickly wiped my face and gathered myself. My whole mood is shifted, I don't even want to finish my errands.

I decided to go home and sleep it off because if not I'll keep replaying it in my head. I woke up back up feeling better about the situation, but I just wish it never happened.

My mom is coming over because I'm cooking dinner for us. I got up and cleaned a little because everything is a disaster.

I still haven't unpacked yet and it's been a week.

By the time I was finished my mom had finally made it. I'm tired from cleaning, so I really don't feel like cooking.

"So what have you been up to?" My mom asked as she watched me move around the kitchen

"Nothing much just the usual"

"You haven't been talking to me or coming to see me. What's that about?" I stopped and gave her a look, but she was waiting for an answer

"Is that why you came over here ?"

"No, I came over here to spend time with my daughter. You only got one momma, you never know when I'm gone drop"

"Don't say stuff like that" I said because I don't like when she talk like that

"It's the truth, Ja'Nae"

"I'm aware — but I wanted to talk to you about something. I don't know how you're gonna take it" I started to get nervous because she has 25 different personalities

"What?"

I started to rethink telling her, but I might as well get it out the way. Regardless of her reaction nothing is changing.

"I'm in a relationship"

"With who your businesses?" She asked and I automatically knew how the conversation was gonna go

"I'm serious"

"Me too, why would you think it's okay to do that?" She asked in a serious tone, "You didn't give yourself time to heal"

"Time doesn't mean anything when I know how I feel. I gave myself time to heal"

"I'm sure it don't when you have a therapist and you on medication, Ja'Nae" I was too choked up to respond

All I could do was stand there. I never told my mom that I had therapist and was on medication

How do she know?

"Who told you that?"

"You put my name down as a backup, remember?" It took a minute for me to remember, "They called me and said you still wasn't taking the medication that was prescribed"

"I'm not"

"If the doctor or whoever prescribes you something, you need to take it. It's not a debate, and it's to help you"

"I'm aware"

"Why you never told me you had a therapist?"

"I don't know" I shrugged my shoulders semi lying because apart of me do know

"And who is this person you call yourself in a relationship with?" She asked while turning her attention to her phone "Daejah again?"

"oh my god" I grew annoyed just hearing her name "I don't want to talk about it"

"It better not be"

"It's not" I confirmed, "I don't want to talk anymore because you don't support"

"I don't because you're not healed, you know that. It seem like whoever this person is, is just here as a distraction"

"okay"

I turned the stove off and walked out of the kitchen. I'm not cooking anymore.

I genuinely do want to be with Ray, and I'm not using her as a distraction. So for her to think that pisses me off.

I don't think I moved on too fast, and if I did so what? It's no need to mope around in sadness.
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