Such a Good Girl | the original

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My eyes opened wide, as I watched Lucifer curse inside his head. "No, no, no, no Lucifer please don't take me to him!" I pleaded as Axel and Nikolai dragged me through the gloomy hallway. This wasn't a fancy penthouse or mansion.

This seemed like an underground facility. Well, at least they don't have to dig a hole when Cain shoots me, like Megan. Wouldn't surprise me, if he buries me next to her. I looked behind me, as I was getting dragged by my feet, not even walking.

Lucifer was following Axel & Nikolas as they were taking me to my death. I was so scared, I think I said a prayer. Cain hated me. Despised me, and he would have me killed on the spot. I threw my head back, inhaling a fresh whiff of air.

Even though the hallways stank, I needed to calm myself down. I had no intention of speaking to him, what the hell do I tell him? Hey Cain, remember me, your girlfriend that lied and said she didn't love you back after you revealed you're twenty and don for the cruelest mafia in America?

I'm doomed. What did I ever do wrong, God? I paid my taxes, I was good, I didn't steal or bully anyone. What did I ever do? A tear rolled down my cheek, as the thought of seeing him after one year made my heart break.

I had moved on, yes but seeing his green eyes again. It pains me to admit, I forgot what his voice sounds like. God, Violette get a grip! Just hope he kills you fast, and that you go to heaven. "Straighten your back, and don't look into his eyes," Nikolas whispered in my ear and my toes curled in fear.

This is it. I'm going to die now. I enjoyed living my life. The big double doors opened, and I was met with a huge study. The interior was night sky blue, and black. This is definitely Cain's office. In the middle was a desk and behind it was a big aquarium with all kinds of fish swimming.

I looked at the man, whose back was turned to us as he stared into the aquarium. My heart was pounding through my chest, as Nikolas and Axel walked me into the room, closing the door behind them. I loved fish, and Cain knew this.

I looked behind me and saw Lucifer still standing with me. I felt a little calmer knowing I wouldn't die alone. "Cain," Lucifer roared into the silent room, and my heart dropped when he spoke, "Yes, pápa?"

God, I wanted to cry. I missed his voice more than I thought I ever would. Without seeing his face, I let a tear roll down my face, as I remembered the day I walked away from him and how much he begged me to stay.

Violette, look at me. We can run away, you, me, and my mafia. We can stay under the radar, and live the life you always wanted. I can give you that Violette. I can give you whatever you want, just don't leave. Not now.

My heart broke all over again, as I remembered how hurt he looked. "We brought the hostage, who was accused of being Esmeralda Pérez, don," Nikolas said, and I frowned as none of them revealed my true identity.

Why were none of them saying who I was?

"He works for her?"

"It's a she, Cain. It's a girl," Lucifer said, and I saw Cain's head nod without him turning around, once.

"Does she work for Esmerelda?" he asked, correcting his mistake. I was shaking in fear, as his voice was hard and deep. Not a trace of emotion was evident in his tone.

"I don't think so but-" Nikolas started until Cain cut him off.

"Kill her."

I knew it. I'm going to die, and the man I used to love is going to kill me. "Cain-" Lucifer started but Cain's voice roared through the room, as he still looked at the fish while they swam in the water.

"I said kill her. If there's even the slightest chance she's working for Esmeralda, I want her dead."

I closed my eyes, as sobs were daring to exit my mouth. My gaze fell from his back to my heels as tears ran down my cheeks, landing on my exposed toes. I didn't know what I expected. For him to come running, embracing me in his bear hugs?

Oh, his hugs. I cried even more, as all the feelings I had tried to swallow down the past year came bursting up again. I felt it all again. All the times he praised me and told me how proud he is. And his forehead kisses, and the small circles he would draw on my bare back whenever we finished sleeping together.

The sound of heels echoing through the study made a crease form on my forehead. I was still looking down at my heels, to prevent Cain from turning around and seeing tears flood down my face.

"Cain, baby calm down," I heard a voice whisper, and my head shot up instantly seeing a woman touching Cain's shoulder, calming him down. Cain's back was still turned towards me, and I watched as he embraced her in his arms & planted a kiss on her forehead, before letting a sigh escape his lips.

"What would I do without you?" Ouch. My jaw was practically on the floor when I saw how soft and calm he became around her.

"I know, what would you do?" she jokes, pecking his nose as if no one was watching them. I felt my heart, break as I saw how happy he was. I felt like absolute trash, for even feeling like this when I'm the one that walked away.

I can't let you go, because I love you.

I ruined every chance I had with him, and I felt my heart break in the pit of my stomach seeing him with another girl. I have no right to feel like this, and I'm disgusted by myself but I can't help wishing I was her.

The girl Cain was hugging turned around, and she was flawless. Her hair perfectly bouncy, her eyes a hazel brown, and her nose pointy. She smiled at me, her teeth pearly and white. "What's your name sweetheart?" she asked me, and I bit my lower lip to prevent myself from crying.

I knew if I said it, Cain would turn around, and look at me. I didn't want him to see me like this, dried tears on my cheeks. He deserves to be happy, without me and he was. I just had to ruin it for him. Nikolas pushed the small of my back, and I choked on a sob.

Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry, don't cry!

I slowly breathed, as I counted down from three in my head. I raised my head, feeling the tears roll down my cheeks. My breathing stopped when our eyes locked. Everything stopped, my crying included and we stared into the eyes of each other.

Cain looked at me, as my fingers started fumbling with each other. I didn't break our gaze. It's been so long since I last looked into those green forest eyes. I couldn't help but intake a shaky breath as I watched a tiny smile form on his lips.

And at that moment as everything stopped, and it was Cain & I only, I realized I lied a year ago. I lied to him and to myself. I lied to everyone around me.

I broke our eye contact and looked at the girl next to him. "M-my name is-"

"Violette." I looked back at Cain, whose eyes were shooting daggers at me. All my fears disappeared when he looked into my eyes.

"Do you two know each other?" the girl next to Cain asked, and I glared between him and her. He deserved to be happy, without me. If he could do it for a year, he could handle a few more. So for that reason, I said,

"No."
"No," he said at the same time as me.

I looked behind me to see Lucifer, kissing his teeth, his eyes bloodshot. At least we were on the same page about that. Both of us let go that afternoon. The girl looked at me a little suspicious before she smiled, clapping her hands together.

"Well let me show you to one of the guestrooms at the house-"

"Mia." His voice was dominant, and warning. She looked up at him and threw her arms around his neck pulling him into a hug. I watched as he tensed, before hugging her back.

"I need to speak to her before you take her anywhere, okay baby?" Cain asked and she nodded her head before kissing his lips. I cleared my throat looking down at my heels as I let them finish their...moment.

She pulled away and walked around the desk towards us. She stopped in front of me, giving me a heartwarming smile before leaving. I felt lonely when I felt Axel, Nikolai & Lucifer leave too. It was only me and him now.

He looked at me, before taking a seat in his desk chair. I looked at him, as he rubbed his temple.

"Sit."