19 - Miss Me More

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I got dressed in the black romper outfit that was see-through lace in the center and then put on my knee-high back boots. I looked in the mirror and made sure I looked amazing...I was in Boston after all. I walked with my parents to the stage lift. I kissed both their cheeks. I knew after this show they were heading back home but I felt good for them to go.

"Kins

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"Kins..." Terry said and I just looked at him.

"What?" I asked grabbing my microphone and just waiting.

"He's here. They all are. They picked up the tickets..." Terry said and I sighed.

I knew I left the tickets open for them to pick up and Connie had called Lisa to remind them they were still invited. I then smirked wickedly at Terry.

"Perfect, I think it's a good night to unveil the new song. The band knows the plan, we will get it after the first small break." I said and Terry nodded. The band started playing and I smiled and waved at everyone below as I started raising up. The crowd started going nuts and I smiled. I looked at the box seats I knew the Evans clan was in and I just gave a small wave, it wasn't a friendly wave especially since I saw Chris and Scott standing in the front.

"BOSTON!" I screamed and the crowd went nuts.

***CHRIS POV***

When she came up from underneath the stage I saw her new look. Dark eye make-up, dark costume, black boots, her hair still short. I looked at Scott.

"That wasn't the outfit she approved at the beginning of the tour, this is dark and black..." I said and Scott groaned.

"The rumors are true...she had changed to Edgy Kinsley." Scott said. I watched her walk out on to stage. She made eye contact with Scott and I and gave a little smart ass wave and I growled.

"She knows we're here." Scott said.

"You thought she wouldn't know. Terry probably told her we were here." I said and Scott sighed.

"This should be fun..." Scott said.

***KINSLEY POV***

It was the first intermission, and I changed my outfit, and I was sitting with the band.

It was the first intermission, and I changed my outfit, and I was sitting with the band

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"We are scrapping If You Go Down tonight. I want to do the new song Miss Me More in its place." I said reminding them and they all smiled.

"Because the inspirations for that song are here." Cherry my one backup singer said and I smiled and nodded.

"Exactly. I will make a small speech and then we will start, just play a long intro. I will give you a nod when I'm ready to start." I said and they nodded.

"We doing them right when you come back?" Jason, my drummer asked and I nodded.

"Yeah so just play the long intro from the minute you get out there." I said and they all nodded.

"Alright, it's time!" A stagehand said and I walked over to the mirror and put on my bright red lipstick. Once it was on we walked back to the side of the stage and the lights were dimmed and I was able to walk onto the stage without being seen by anyone, the band started playing and the lights came up. Everyone saw me and started screaming again.

"You guys miss me?!" I asked and they all cheered. "Love hearing it! I missed you guys but ya know I had to change for the these few numbers because we are doing something a little different. How do you guys feel about hearing new music?" I asked and they erupted in screams and cheers. I looked up at Scott and Chris still watching intently. The rest of the family was cheering.

"About this time of the show I would have usually sang a song that was written and dedicated to my best friend knowing he is here tonight. Only we recently dissolved that friendship when he picked someone over me. So I wrote a song for me...about me...and how I feel now. It dedicated to my ex-best friend and the person he picked over me. Was it worth it?" I said the end directly at Chris and Scott. I nodded to the band letting them know I was ready since they had been just playing music.

🎵 I retired my red lipstick
Cause you said you didn't like it
I didn't wear my high heel shoes
Cause I couldn't be taller than you
I didn't wanna lose my friends
But now it's hard to even find them
What you wanted, ain't it?
It's what you wanted
I thought I'd miss you (when it ended)
I thought it hurt me (but it didn't)
I thought I'd miss you
I thought I'd miss you
But I miss me more
I miss my own beat, to my own snare drum
I miss me more
Miss my own sheets in the bed I made up
I forgot I had dreams, I forgot I had wings
Forgot who I was before I ever kissed you
Yeah, I thought I'd miss you
But I miss me more, I miss me more
I put on my old records
That I hid in the back of the closet
And I turn them up to ten
And then I played them all again
I found my independence
Can't believe I ever lost it
What you wanted, ain't it?
It's what you wanted
I thought I'd miss you (when it ended)
I thought it hurt me (but it didn't)
I thought I'd miss you
Yeah, I thought I'd miss you
But I miss me more
I miss my own beat, to my own snare drum
I miss me more
Miss my own sheets in the bed I made up
I forgot I had dreams, I forgot I had wings
Forgot who I was before I ever kissed you
Yeah, I thought I'd miss you
But I miss me more, I miss me more
I thought I'd miss you
I thought it hurt me
And I'd wanna kiss you
I thought I'd miss you
But I miss me more
I miss my own beat, to my own snare drum
I miss me more
Miss my own sheets in the bed I made up
I forgot I had dreams, I forgot I had wings
Forgot who I was before I ever kissed you
And I thought I'd miss you
But I miss me more
I miss me more
I miss me more
I miss me more🎵

***CHRIS POV***

This new outfit she had on was driving me wild, even her edgy side was hot but I missed the old Kinsley too, my Kins. As she sang I could pinpoint what was about me and what was about Scott. This was her new powerhouse song, I could tell. She did what she said and she was going to write a song about us, there was no two ways about it and she had every right to do so.

She kept making eye contact with us during the song and the family knew it was about Scott and I just because of her speech. Once the song was over I was looking down, I couldn't do this, I couldn't deal with it. Her heart was shattered...she was cold and bitter now. She didn't care who she hurt in the process.

"This is on you." I heard Scott say.

"Excuse me?!" I asked pissed off.

"You fucking made her this way!" Scott said and shoved me. I shoved him back.

"I wasn't the only one who fucking dropped her Scott!" I yelled so her could hear me over the roar of the crowd.

"No I have blame on this but her and I wouldn't have had issues if you wouldn't have been a fucking baby and whined about seeing her! Shit happens. You made her this bitter, I know I didn't help picking you over her but I thought I had to pick family! But the main cause was you shattering her heart! We have lost fun loving Kinsley, we are now stuck with Edgy Kinsley! Good fucking going Chris!" Scott said, shoved me one more time and walked away. I knew he was right, I started this, I caused this and I needed to make it right.

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