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| 𝐂𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐋𝐄 𝐉𝐀𝐗𝐎𝐍 𝐉𝐀𝐂𝐄 |

I already want to say 'fuck it' and call Holly even though there's still half an hour left until our agreement.

While roaming around the house wasn't too bad, it was the random girls coming up to me...which confused me.

At school, no one came up to me, but here I seem to be attracting quite a handful of people. I don't know why. Last I checked, I haven't made any changes to my appearance or applied any special perfume or something.

I haven't touched a single drop of alcohol.

I would never.

I caught sight of Holly a long time ago. It's hard not to when she's always the center of attention. Her blonde hair shines as if she put glitter on them and her tight black dress makes her look bolder than she does every day.

I purse my lips when my cheeks warm up at the thought of her.

It's starting to happen frequently. Just the thought of her makes my face red. And when I see her, it's like I can't breathe for a moment.

I seriously thought this blushing thing was a disorder or something because I've never seen any other guy blush as much as I do. But Mom said that I'm just "shy".

I take another walk around the house and falter in my steps when my eyes land on Holly again.

She's dancing in the center of the dance floor between all those people as if she owns the place. My breath gets taken away again as I gaze at her.

How does she move her body like that is beyond me. Her movements are so smooth, and so captivating that a lot of other people stop to stare. She has a bottle in her hand that she keeps chugging while dancing.

If anyone else attempted to drink while dancing the way Holly did, they'd choke and die.

A small ache forms in my chest, looking at her. I've finally allowed myself to admit that it doesn't hurt to call her gorgeous. She is. Very much.

She's still way out of my league.

Admitting that I might have feelings for her nearly sent me into permanent shock. The moment those words came out of my mouth, I wanted to run and cower somewhere in the corner until Holly left my house.

The relief I felt when Holly was still persistent in wanting me close even after she didn't want me to have feelings for her. It did sting a bit when she didn't even want to try to stay committed but at least I'm glad that I cleared out everything between us.

I am not going to allow myself to complicate things with her when I already have my life messed up.

Taking one final look at Holly, I walk away from there to resume my mindless wandering.

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