𝚄𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚘𝚘𝚗.

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Saturday May 15
12:42am

'Why is it always me?'

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You were walking down the street with tears streaming down your eyes as it rained, you sniffled wiping your tears but more would just come out, you didn't know what was draining you but you also knew what was.

Everyone was so confused about you, everyone asked what was up with you but you just felt like you couldn't open up to them, the fact everything that happened was a dream.

Junior wasn't alive the whole time, it was a dream but a nightmare, poncho wasn't alive either, he was found dead when you woke up, you saw it on the news and you asked everyone where is junior, you went up to the hospital and the nurses told you he died a long time ago.

You couldn't believe it at all, you checked your phone as well and no missed calls were there, you sobbed quietly letting out a moan from pain, everything felt numb, your heart felt numb.

It felt like you were stepping on legos at this point, you just wanted to end it, you were giving up without junior, that dream just made it worse without him, him and that goofy smile. You actually thought he was there again, you felt his arms but did you feel his soul? No.

You couldn't even tell notti at all, not even anyahlee, you were going through so much since the past days all you could do was stay home in your room crying, the boys sometimes come around and bring you food knocking on your door but you never answered.

Ddot always came up to your house asking if you wanted food or anything, you never answered him and it made you feel so bad, he always sat there in front of your door starting a conversation even if you didn't answer. He's probably at your room door right now trying to chat with you but your not there.

Today you decided you wanted to vanish, you wanted everything to end, despite having a boyfriend you did appreciate him but it just wasn't enough to heal you but notti is enough.

At this moment you had no second thoughts, you walked into the alley way then yanked down the ladder from the gate stairs, you climbed the ladder then walked up all the stairs.

You jumped into the roof and sighed, you knew you had a fear of heights so it would be hard but you just had your headphones in to calm down, you went over to the edge then stared up at the sky.

"Junior please..",you mumbled before breaking down, you had voices in your head telling you not to jump, disagreeing with your choice but your heart wanted it.