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"I cant do it" - Matt ⚠️

TW - mentions of SA. This is all fiction! And im always here to help or talk to anyone. Please reach out if you need to vent, ily all!!! Stay safe!! <3

Real life:

Im with my best friend Bethany at her boyfriends frat party. Were dancing in the living room and i tell her im getting another drink. " get me one, please." She asks and i nod and head to the kitchen. Theres a couple kissing on the counter next to the keg, i pour some drinks then take them back to the living room.

I give her one and she kisses my cheek and i laugh and dance with her. After my drink i really need to pee. " can i use your bathroom Garrett. The lines too long." I whine and he nods. " course. Quadruple 0s." He says and i smile and jump up and head to Garret's bathroom.

I pee and then im suddenly exhausted so i sit on the edge of the bed and lay back for a minute. I hear the door unlock and i think its Bethany until i feel a strong pair of hands gripping my legs.

" the fuck, what. Go away." I shout while he continues to grab my hips and keep me gripped to the bed. He keeps kissing my face and i try to squirm away.

" stop fucking moving." He spits and i start to cry. Tears are streaming down my face and i try to push him away but its not working he's like triple my weight.

He holds me down tighter and he tries taking my dress off. He lifts the hem off and i try to kick my legs but then he just traps my leg down.

I hear the door click again and my chest tightens. I hear yelling and then the guy is being pushed away. " are you okay?" Garret asks and i pull my dress down and i wipe away the tears.

" no, can you get Beth." I ask and he nods and storms out the room and it clicks shut. I try to compose myself and Beth comes running in.

" Y/n! ARE YOU OKAY! I love you. Im so sorry, i should have come with you to watch out." She says and puts my head to the crook of her neck. I cry into her shoulder and Garrett comes back in with a glass of water for me and asks me if i need anything. I shake my head and he kisses Beth head before letting us talk. Everything happened so fast its hurting my head.

" are you okay, should i call anyone? None of this is your fault. He wont get away with this, we will make sure he is out the school. He's being kicked out this house." She reassures me and i cant stop crying and hyperventilating.

" im going to head to matts." I say and i take a gulp of my water. I take the cup with me and she smiles. " want me to walk with you." She asks and i shake my head. " no he's like 5 mins away, ill call you when im there so you know im okay. Thank you." I say and she grabs a tissue and blots my eyes and i blown my nose. She walks me to the door and i kiss her cheek. " love you." I say and walk off. When i get to the edge of the street and the partys out of sight i sprint all the way to matts room.

I take the elevator up to his floor and then i knock on his door in a rush. " he- oh my god what happened." He asks and pulls me in, he examines me. Now i realise i probably look crazy. Now im here it daunts on me i have to tell him. What if he breaks up with me? He wouldn't do that, would he?

" before i say this im so sorry i didn't mean for this to happen, some guy at the party kissed me and forced himself on me and i tried and tried to push him away it was no use. Im so sorry." I beg and he looks astonished. " dont say sorry, are you okay. Are you hurt." He asks and i shake my head.

He pulls me into him and i jump up and he wraps his arms around me and then pulls me into his lap, Reassuring me everything okay.

" i just cant get him off me. I feel sick." I say and his eyes soften and he wraps his arms tight around me. Being held so tight makes me feel like im suffocating and the memories rush through my head, making me feel sick.

" get off, please." I beg and he recoils like im on fire. I cry into my hands, i feel so useless. He rests a hand on my shoulder not pressing too hard.

" i need to shower, can i have some clothes please." I ask. He nods, he rushes to his wardrobe and picks out some stuff. " i love you." He says and i smile weakly before heading to the shower. " wait! Y/n." He asks, he runs down the hall to catch up and i want to cry all over again. " ill wait for you." He says and i nod and thank him.

I shower and scrub my skin so hard my arms are red raw. After i feel clean enough to get out i stand looking in the mirror for so long. I see my phone buzz and Beth is checking up and matt asks if im okay. Am i? I tell Beth im fine and to enjoy her night and i tell matt ill be out in 10.

I brush through my hair and put on matts hoodie. I wipe the tears brewing in my eyes and i walk out with matts wash bag in hand. He jumps up from sitting in the hallway and tries to smile in a reassuring way. Tears are brewing again and i cant hold it in. I sit on matts bed against the headboard and he dosent want to get too close but i really need him.

I soon exhaust myself to sleep and matt rests a hand on my back all night to reassure me im here.

A week later:

Ive stayed at matts dorm all week. He's been to my dorm to pick up some of my stuff and i havent been in class all week. Matt texted all my teachers and said there was a personal emergency and that i needed a week off. He's going to walk to class with me but im just not ready.

" i cant do this matt." I say. He shakes his head. " you can, your the strongest girl I've ever met. you can do this." He says and i shrug. He wipes the tears and i sniff. " what if i see him." I choke and he holds my hand. " Beth told me a couple days ago he was kicked out. Theres nothing to worry about, your 100% safe." He says and i smile. " ill walk you there, and when your done ill walk with you to your next class,
Plus Beth will be in your classes." He smiles and i nod.

" ready." He asks and grabs my backpack. I hold it together and get to my class, Beth is waiting for me and i dont shed a tear. I dont find myself thinking about it a-lot because im stuck in my work.

" what do you have next." She asks. " social studies." I say and she nods. " lets go." She says and matts waiting outside with Garrett. There laughing and smiling and i do to for the first time in ages. Ill be okay.

" everything go okay." Matt asks. I nod and he clasps my hand in his. " thank you for the other week." I say to Garrett and he scoffs. " dont mention it, i got you y/l/n." He smiles holds out his hand for a high five and i chuckle, Beth puts her hand on my back and i feel okay for the first time in a week. I can do this.

" your doing so good, i love you." Matt whispers before i head into my next class and i kiss him. I shake my head because kissing still feels really weird because i still feel him on me but im trying to get over it. " love you, thank you." He says and i head into my class and get on with the work. Ive missed being in class. I can do this ill be okay.