Seen or Unseen

Dissonant Whispers

Trigger Warning: Birth, & Blood. NO DEAD BABIES

The Vibe:

My heart was pounding in my chest as Namor and I rushed out of our home, the fear and panic overwhelming me. I hadn't even gotten dressed; I was still dripping wet from my thick braids  I could feel my breaths coming in short gasps as we made our way to the Mansion. Namor tried to calm me down, but his words felt distant and muffled against the roar of my own thoughts. I broke down in tears, my body wracked with sobs.

"Millie, breathe. In and out," Namor said as he held me close.  My heart feels like it's beating out of my chest. Everything around me is so loud like the volume on the world has been turned up to max. I can feel my body vibrating like I'm plugged into an electrical socket. My breaths come in short gasps, and I can't seem to get enough air into my lungs.

My mind is racing, thoughts tumbling over each other like a never-ending stream of consciousness. I can't focus on any one thing, everything seems equally important and equally terrifying. My hands are shaking, and I can't seem to get them to stop.

It's like I'm trapped in my own body, unable to escape the chaos inside. I know I need to calm down, but that just seems impossible right now. I'm stuck in this moment, this panic, and I don't know how to get out.

"I'm right here, just breath Ki'ichpan, just breath with me"

I nod, breathing slowly stabilizing as I clung to Namor. My mind was still racing, but the panic was subsiding.

What happens if he takes our baby? What if he kills Namor? What if--

All the worst-case scenarios played out in my head as we hurriedly drove through the streets, each second feeling like a lifetime. By the time we reached Charles' door, I was practically in a state of panic.

But as we entered the school, I felt myself begin to numb out.  The panic attack subsided, but now I feel an odd sensation wash over me. It was like I was floating, disconnected from my body and the world around me. Everything felt distant like I was watching my life from a distance. My thoughts slowed down, and my mind felt like it was wrapped in a thick fog.

The racing heart and trembling of my body had given way to an almost eerie stillness. The sound of my own breathing was muffled, and the world around me seemed muted. I felt like I was in a dream, or like I was a ghost haunting my own life.

It was a strange and unsettling feeling like I was outside of myself looking in. Part of me felt relieved that the panic had passed, but another part of me was scared by how detached I felt.  The fear and panic that had consumed me moments before were replaced by a cold, heavy feeling in the pit of my stomach.

Namor fortunately handled all of this like a champ; I know he must be just as freaked out as me but I was unable to be any help to him at the moment.  He explained everything to Charles and asked if we could stay for the night.

"Of course, you never have to ask" Charles responds. Charles makes his way toward me trying to speak to me but my focus is somewhere else and he still sounds muffled.  He looks at me and decides to try something different, "Millie. Don't numb yourself away"

I hear him loud and clear now, he's in my head. My head snaps in his direction, "There you go. " He says taking my hand in his, "I haven't been in your head for decades," He says trying to engage me