I Forget to Forgive Myself

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She storms to her room & lays down on the bed. There's only pain, all-encompassing pain radiating in crashing waves that threaten to drown her with every breath. Just to pacify her anger she starts throwing whatever she gets into her hand. She doesn't know what to do to calm herself. She just picks up her guitar & starts playing. She even does not know what she is playing, It is more like an irritating noise rather than any tune. She just wants to wash out all the memory of the past 12 years including that night. After some time she finally stops when the string of her guitar can't take her torture and breaks down. She keeps aside her guitar & leans down against the bed sitting on the hard surface of her room.

AK:🤔 Abhi, you are right. I kept wanting forgiveness from others but forgot to forgive myself. I am tired. I really want to get out of this guilt. I can do it, right? I will do it. From now I will live only for myself.

She suddenly came out of her thoughts listening to some familiar voice.

"Hoyee...Hoyee..."

She looked around following the sound. She gets another shock of the day seeing Abhi at her window trying to balance himself on the ladder which he used to do this stunt. She runs toward the window shouting unknowingly " What are you doing here?"

Abhi is still trying to find some support to place himself but gets a sudden heart attack listing to her voice which was so loud. Realizing her blunder, she looked towards her door which was locked. She takes a deep breath with relief and helps him to stand still on one of the rungs of the ladder asking again in a low voice " What are you doing here?" & how?

AB: Calm down. It is all your fault. If you have to say something, You should call using your phone. How can I hear you if keep calling my name sitting here or is there any other technology which I did not know?

AK: If it is a Joke, then it is really a bad one at this moment. Can you please explain what is going on?

AB: Check your phone, Even if I did not count, It will definitely be more than 20 times.

AK: What?

AB: My miscalled ...Why are you not picking up my call. You threw a bomb in the morning & disappeared. It was obvious that It will not go well with your family. I was hell-worried. So...

AK: So you landed up yourself at my window... What are you thinking? If someone saw you, It will create more problems. And How you managed to get here? What about Guard?

AB: I bribed him.

AK: What! (She can not believe that he is an upright doctor who never forgives one single mistake. But today he bribed someone to crashland at someone's house without caring about his reputation just because he is worried about her. She can't decide what to do.) Should I feel happy or laugh at your stupidity? Looks like you are regretting that I saved you. You really wanted to go to the police station.

AB: I ... I... Actually, this is Neil's Idea.

AK: But how did Guard let both of you come in? He has no fear of losing his job.

AB: Don't blame him. Neil blackmailed him with his son. We will help him to get a job in our hospital. Everybody has his own weakness.

AK: Still, It is not ...

AB: Common yaar, I am not some criminal. I just can't find any other ideas for now. I literally begged him.

He tried to step forward when Akshu suddenly stop him.

"No...No... You can't come to my room".

AB: (He suddenly becomes awkward with her behavior). Don't worry I know my limit. I was just suiting myself in this great setup.

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