just go with the flow
~~~~~~~
When you search for reason
to uphold
You find secret of downhill,
But if you just stare back at words
They might be the reason
To float in it.
~~~~~
Aarvi
Some words are triggering point. When I say word hold power I meant by the memory and thought they came from. And Sneha words are a freaking bomb shell. Her words are might be for her mother but don't know why look like for me.
You know the most beautiful part of poetry! Is that the words can be interpreted as your thoughts and perception. And mine with my mother was a big hell confusing.
Today after the poetry I can't hold my self to dail the number, I know by heart, to ring it and when I listen her voice, that was a breaking point, I am not ready to handle.
She should delete or block this number. I mean who just call and cut the call like every in three four months. Sorry weeks. I miss her. No matter what she did and what she should do. I can't hate the only person who seems to look stable in my life. That's why maybe I was the one who hurt her in the worst possible way. But I am not ready, for second time questioning again of what I should do back, rather than what I did.
After all we all make mistakes and sometime it has enough consequences to never have the right to go back. And mine gives me amazing result. I don't wanna go back. Atleast not like this, actually not like anyway, I never wanna go back their. Only that the decision come with Condition to never able to go back to the Family, Or same blood people.
I check my mobile to get a call from the only person I ever talk. Well I call him earlier only to know he is in his class.
Hello di?!
This voice that actually give me a sense of someone is here. The only person who never had a fault or maybe we all three never have fault. It's just our way to handle or Runaway. Fake helping words are cruel but the words that actually show's the care or may actually have, it is Cruelest. I choose this life, I choose what I wanted to be, I CHOOSE what I am doing right now. I have no one to blame and Honestly I am very much scare to blame someone because what if by blaming I become like him? When people biggest fear was their genes only it hurt to accept.
If you have to complete the talk in your mind only so you should tell me I will just not call now.
You know it's not like that,
Missing home?
That place wasn't my home, it never became.
So where is your home? That dorm room?
Not philosophy Please.
Di complete her college and actually working in a good media house.
Woww, so it means I am going to see her soon on tv?
You should call them, atleast her. She is not at fault.
Neither of the other of them. Hey your time for calling will be passed soon. Let me just tell what is happening with your life?
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SOLITUDE TO SOLACE
Lãng mạn"Their are two kinds of world, one where you live and another where you want to live. The world of your imagination or Fiction." ~~~~~~~~~~~ "Whatever you get, you deserve it. And if you don't you would never get it." Aarvi never g...
