SOLITUDE TO SOLACE

12.

They lay their in the white clothes lifeless, and all he care about the girl sleeping peacefully on the upstairs.

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Utkarsh Zindal
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The sound of trinkets resonating on the set. This set, this show always excite me. The female lead is Finalised as well, today I will met her. Ridhima said she is some new actress. An actress working first time on the set with me, Raiden & Avni. I really pity her.

But all those thoughts put a hold on the back of my head when I reach set. The sound of trinkets were resonating on the set. Making the whole set alive. I know I should leave for make up room but I guess my feet has their own brain when they take me to the place where the ongoing shooting was happening.

Majestic

The only word that describe her.

A girl in white anarkali, where musical notes embrace her in a tight comfort. It was just a sound.

It does not have any lyrics neither any extra instrument giving this piece a sense of individuality it must be a classic it has it's own elegance. I guess I hear the notes somewhere but it's strangely beautiful. Those silent resonating sound of notes with her trinkets and bangles are a compliment of her performance making it even more appealing and centric. She was their with her hand making intricating patterns with those minions change in her expression every second. Her legs are not on the floors it's somewhere between air. And I am not really good at describing scenes but it's beautiful, majestic should be right word.

And Their comes a thunderbolt when I look at the face of girl dancing between those camera, wait why is she dancing? Why the hell is she even their. That's the face of the girl who insulted me three days ago. Our freaking writer, why the hell she is in their.

I turn around looking at riddhima with the question in my eyes.

"She is the actress playing the role of Shayri Bansal." she said as if that's the most obvious thing in the world. How can she speaks like that, it's no way normal or obvious. Wasn't she was playing an obnoxious writer roll, who does come in light. The actors in this set has not know anything about anyone except their own life while she is their creating all this web for us than coming along to play.

My thoughts take a pause when the sounds become urgent making the announcement of the end of dance nearing. And their she start spinning around the hall like that's where her axis exist. She is just their to spin. Her feets are not at rest even for milliseconds and Her hands folding and opening while making patterns like they are whispering to air some secrets and that's when the sounds become more complex and strong as if it's not one but many songs come together to justify her expression. Expression like a bird finally getting her freedom back she is smiling and it's beautiful far more beautiful than the smiles she give at starting. And her eyes are somewhere above her, like she is looking at the very reason she exist and when I follow her eyes their exist a guy tall, brown hair, blue eyes in his tuxedo. His expression is far more different than mine it's not amazement but it's worried? I don't know why, maybe that's what written in the script. Like he wants to run at her, exist in her world, want to be the space where she revolve but he knows he can not exist their, it's not his place they are just soo different even when he can trade anything to be with her.

And than the Songs comes to it's most highest pace and her revolving stopped because she fall on the ground her hand straighten ahead, her eyes unfocused, breathing heavily as she just come down to the reality and her all dreams are left untouched. Her smile disappear, her eyes darken and that's when I hear the most disturbing CUT, I have ever hear in my life. Yes it was a performance, it's not truth, neither her expression nor her performance. I think I have always seen the shooting of dance sequence to take a day with tens and hundreds of retake that I forgot how it feels to see a performance in a go and mistaken it as real. It was not real, it's what shayri feel not aarvi. She is an amazing actress

But as if Raiden was waiting for that cut for years he run downstairs hurriedly. His expression are completely different than mine. It's not like the aftereffects of a beautiful performance it was real, raw emotions. Oh he can show emotions too, that's strange.

"If you were improvising script just told me, I am not accustomed to sudden sequences."raiden blamed her with a weird expression on his face, it's strange it's really really strange, I have never seen this man like that, he is not someone who can express.

But what amazes more is the normalacy aarvi feel from that she was shocked but not bewildered like me, "but I already told Ashish sir that the whole dance sequence would be choreograph by me and would be taken in one sh...

"but you never said you are going to use blood for the scene. Don't you think if it's the desire first meeting you want for them you should atleast tell me about the bloody feet you have decided beforehand."

And just than my eyes and her eyes goes towards her feet, it's bad, it was really bad, the whole feet was bleeding and red with blood. Red. Blood. Death. Red. Blood. Death. Red. Blood. Dea...

My whole thought process break the moment I hear the scream. It was not mine, it was not similar like that, it's not critisising one it was bewildered, and shout of pain.

"Ouch. Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck it hurts, it hurts soo bad, the trinkets are stuck on my feet somebody help."
She was bewildered, even confused. So am I, did she really not realise when her feet become a bloody mess. The look of horror on her eyes said a story that's hard to believe. And it created the panic, Raiden pick her up in bridal style while the nursing staff goes behind her.

She was hurt and she did not realise. The girl who was dancing was shayari than why does aarvi was soo immersed? Was it really her acting or was it real? The expression, the movement, the smile, was they really not monitored?

Was it really real?

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Later on I got scolded by Ashish sir for not getting ready at the time. I can not help but ask if she is really okay. For which he said it was not something big, through continues movement even after injury cause blood loss. But she is alright just would be hard to walk for two days and have to be careful in future.

She said she already got hurt three days prior on her feet so that's why it start bleeding alot even for a small scratch. Oh Yes, I remember when she join our conversation their was blood stain after she leave so she must be hurt that time.

But why not take a help than walking or dancing while bleeding? Why does she look so bright like the first ray of sunshine, when in reality she is just a bloody mess of pain and suffering, how can she smile like that when all she should feel was pain and suffering.

Why does pain does not bother this 5foot girl? If this is what building her than what is she going to break her and how?

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That's it for today!

Gosh I miss Raiden soo much 😭 but it's easy to write this scene in utkarsh pov. Raiden would just fuck it up because he was not candid he was train to be their to look at her to feel the burden of her emotion is his role (atleast as Shourya).

And the song she was dancing was actually Vivaldi. I know it should be more intresting if their is some classical song with lyrics but it's just feel right. And at the end where she revolve just imagine someone is playing all four season of Vivaldi together in a musical chorus (I really really really want to listen it and I love imagining it)

Okay so that's it for today. Tell me how is it? And listen Vivaldi while reading if you have not listen it before. Their is just some beauty in the classic music and literature.

Bye bye take care
~Shrish

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She is a mystery
A girl with thousands facade
And he was never intrested in solving any mystery
More than her.
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