SOLITUDE TO SOLACE

13.

I am scared. Blood. Somebody help me. Blood. It's dark. Blood. I think that's how life works. Blood.

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Raiden Miller
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I look at the girl sleeping peacefully. She is strange, like a weird kind of strange person I have never seen before. She seems so different so many times. It's like she have thousands of faces that she is showing just to hide one face.

The face who can smile freely while dancing. That smile was not fake, that feel really nice but why does it feel that she did not smile because of dance or song. She smiled for the pain she felt on her feet. She is a strange girl really really strange girl.

The only scene we had today was of our first meet. Even when she said she can do it in less than two hours. Sir did not really believe it. Well she did, the rest scene was of Manikhet and shradda so Utkarsh and Avni can handle it. This might be my packup but we had script so sir said let's do the shoot of mine and Avni too, which would be after two-three hours after complition of their shoot. I should go and take a break or would have to read files to sign for company. Their is tons of work left for me to do still I don't know why my legs are stilled glued to the seat beside her sleeping figure.

She looks soo peaceful, without a single moment as if a dead body. I know I should not talk like that but that's what it really resembles. She strangely feel similar, and I don't like it. Neither the smile, nor the scars she hide behind those fake skin. I don't know what those are I can not see that I know, but I don't want to be associate with her. I know somewhere in my heart this girl might be the reason for me to look back on the things I have left behind and it scares me to open all those wounds again.

And that's why I strongly despise her. She is just an existence why to resemble HER so much and be soo different than her at the same time. The blood remind me of the doors that are tightly closed in my heart. I don't remember having aversion to the blood I think it's just this girl whom I have to stay atleast a mile away, and still here I am sitting beside her looking at her sleeping figure with these conflicting emotions.

"Aise tuk tuk karke mat dekho koi aur hoti toh galatfehmi paal leti." her eyes are still close, but those face is no more expressionless their is a hint of smile receding on her face.
(Don't look so intently, someone else might misunderstood)

"Oh sleeping beauty uth gyi I thought I have to kiss you to wake you up" I don't know why I am speaking like that. A strange smile appeared in my lips.

"Tauba, that would be sexual assault mister." she looked at me with accusing eyes and I might actually think she is offended if not for the small smile is their on her face. She looked tired, a little drained but strangely at ease. Why is she so at ease with a practical stranger.

"And than you would beat me up like those guys." I said, it strange that smile never really left me like the very first day how I met her. Their is something about her that put my head on ease and that same part make me anxious to be around her.

"Obivously I wi... wait who guys?"her eyes are questioning. Oh Yes she might not remember it after all she did not see my face.

"The one you beat up that night. When I walk you home."

"You walk me home? Raiden I guess their might be a misunderstanding here. I am good at fighting but I never beat some eve teasers at road at night or nor anyone ever walk me home. Why would I not remember your face as well, when you are a national crush?"