I'll Walk Through Fire And Ice| Chanlix Royal au

Explanation + ily

"You'll really tell me? The reason behind your scar?" Felix asked and Chan nodded, the younger blonds hand going up to lightly graze his scar, he always thought it was beautiful.

"Why? I mean, why now?" Felix asked, Chan had dodged the question many times before and now he was willing to lay his soul bare for Felix.

"Because, you deserve to know. I've said some shitty things to you in the past and you deserve to know why. What made me push Hyunjin away, why I was so reserved before you, my scar, all of it." Chan was taking a really big step telling Felix and the latter was so proud of him for it.

"But, before I tell you, I want you to remember, I-I love you, Felix. That's another reason I'm telling you. I love you and I want you to know all of me. Even the dark and ugly side of me." Fuck, he finally said it. It was a little early to be honest, judging by the fact that Chan had only started to court him 4 or 5 days ago, but he was sure.

"I love you too Chan." Felix responded. They hadn't even started the actual conversation and he already had tears in his eyes. Chan loves him. That was enough for those tears.

"And, I don't think there's anything ugly about you. The darkness though, I kind of like it. It's... sexy." Chan smirked and pulled Felix flush against him.

"I never thought you would have such thoughts, crown prince. It's not a very royal thing to do." Felix playfully rolled his eyes as royal etiquette was expected of him.

"Well, I did call you Eros once upon a time. I'm human too Chris." How could Chan forget. It was the first time he kissed Felix and tasted those sweet lips.

"Maybe I'll show you later how dark I can be. But right now, I need you to promise me that whatever I tell you, you won't run." The playfulness dying down into seriousness now and Felix knew why.

"I promise. I told you before I would never run from you." Felix assured and they both sat down on the ground somewhere facing the waterfall.

Chan leaned against a tree and Felix sat in between Chan's legs with his back resting on Chan's chest. Chan wrapped his arms around his waist and put his head on Felix's shoulder. It was time. He took a deep breath and spoke.

"I did have a brother. He was 3 years older than me making him 28, if he was here. However, my parents decided to keep him a secret until he was 5 years of age. I was born 3 years later. I don't know the exact reason my parents decided to keep him a secret but they did. When I was 2, my brother... he- he tried to drown me." Chan's voice faltered a little and Felix knew this wasn't easy for him.

"His name was Sylver. Sylver Bang. The real crown prince. He tried to drown me when I was two and my parents found me in the bath tub with a very low heart beat. Any longer and I would have been dead. He tried again when I was 3, actually he tried twice when I was 3 and then also when I was 4 and three times when I was 5. Most of those times my parents found me on the brink of death. He also tried stabbing me." Felix was about to stop Chan but Chan stopped him instead.

"I need to tell you Lix. I want to." Felix nodded and let Chan continue.

"After that, they got him diagnosed and turned out he had some extra gene in him or dna, I don't know. It was something that makes someone psychopathic. So he was locked in his room. I grew up and knew I had a beother who was never let out of his room, so I'd sit outside his door and talk to him sometimes. He told me that he didn't know what he was doing everytime he tried something on me. He said he had no control over himself. He was 14 that time." Chan paused for a second and Felix felt something wet against his neck. Chan was crying.

Felix tried to turn to look at Chan but Chan held him in place, saying that he wouldn't be able to continue if he looked directly at Felix. The latter hated that idea but understood that Chan had to tell his story.