You Give Me Butterflies

18

Islan

"Next on the dockettt! We have Ja morant and Islan." I laughed, Zoie was so giddy and excited to report on the pregnancy announcement.

"Now this isn't mess but I'm so happy for them. Ja Morant and Islan Moore revealed that they are expecting a baby boy! Y'all know they are everybody's favorite couple! They also have officially adopted Nova, which I think is beautiful. I love when black love be black loving. Congratulations to them! we are sending prayers, love and well wishes to them!" I turned the tv off and looked over at Ja. I was getting ready for her studio session today. I was recording two songs, On dedicated to our unborn and One Id written recently about how I was feeling in my relationship these days.

Ja's birthday was the next day and He was heading to Miami, so He was spending time with Me and the girls for the day. After the studio we were taking Nova and Kaari to eat at their favorite restaurant.

"You ready?"  He asked me as he stood up.

"Yeah, we have to be there in 20 minutes." I started to walk away, but he grabbed me.

"You okay stink? I know that conversation from earlier made you upset." I'd had a conversation with someone from my label who had taken over, and they were basically telling me that I was fucking up my career having a baby so early on.

"I'm okay, I am upset though. I fought through those thoughts that my baby was ruining my career and for him to so coldly tell me I won't succeed hurt. This little boy is my motivation to be better, do better and give him way more than I had."

"I understand, people were saying the same thing about me having Kaari so young, but I ain't cared My daughter the reason I turnt this shit up to begin with." He shrugged, it pissed us off when people thought just because you're young having kid was going to ruin your life. In reality it changes your life completely and makes you go ten times harder.

When we got to the studio Ja took his seat on the couch. Iris and Dtap slid through, so they were just enjoying the vibes and watching my process. Ja loved watching me do my thing.I felt like I looked cute as hell with my hair tied up. l was rocking leggings and one of Ja's shirts, my small bump very visible. A pair of all white forces on my feet, cuban link necklace and bracelet on and my favorite thing was my face being make up free. My man loved when I was natural.

"I like this beat, I really want this song done and out by tomorrow. You think you can make it happen?" I asked my producer. We were in sync mostly. He'd worked on my EP as well.

"Come on Izzy, you know I got you. Just get in the booth and do ya thing." He laughed, I got up and headed to the booth and the room became silent aside from the beat playing. He signaled me in and I started doing my thing. Speaking to my baby boy from my heart.

"They know I made a mistake, it probably make me weak as shit
Memories in my head, I wish I could delete the shit
Probably thought I had a purpose, you was made for me,"

There was conviction in my voice as she glided across the beat. I watched Ja as he listened intently nodding to my words as I spoke to our unborn.

"We gotta bond and they can't break it, I was made for you
I took a chance and ran with it, when I made you
I risk my life down to the wire, cause you damn important
So many voices and opinions, you make me ignore them,"

"Talk to em' stink," I read Ja's lip and it made me smile. It made me feel good that he was into the song.

"Love is so unconditional I'm like for you I will
Lay my life right on the line and that's just what it is
See god had sent me an angel, how I'm pose to thank him
The cards is dealt for me to play, they wanted me to change them,"