The coincidence | Rudy Pankow

24: girls day

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It's been a few days since jd and me spoke in the trailer yet I've decided not to say anything about what I now know ,I've been pushing that to the back of my mind, scared of the possibilities of what could happen if I told him how I feel would it work or would we both just end up hurting Maisie and ourselves in the process something I don't want to do to, every corner of my mind is haunted with these feelings peaking through the cracks, I'm not willing to let my daughter lose her dad because we chose to try a relationship which might not work i don't  want to ruin that for them.

Me and the girls decided to have a girls day today i was hesitant at first that is until rudy said he wanted me to have fun and that i deserve a break from mother mode, he said that i should hang out with the girls and he will have a daddy daughter day with maisie, when i finally gave in we got ready i said goodbye to maisie

we decided to head to the mall before going to grab some food mads is driving bails is in the backseat with me and laci is upfront with mads we all decided to listen to music on the drive laci is in control of the aux which i found out she has amazing music taste

we arrive at the mall mads parks the car before we all get out and walk into the mall were all deciding which stores we wanna go to i tell them  I want to get a few bits for maisies birthday which i know i maybe quite too early but i like to get things done early we start walking into the mall after deciding where we wanna go , We walk around the mall for a while we go into a few shops I got Maisie a few things as well as myself some stuff the girls get stuff for themselves we all decided to get iced coffees from the mall I take a picture off all our iced coffees to post it on my Instagram later

we go to a restaurant away from the mall we're walking into the restaurant the waiter takes us to a booth and gives us a menu each while he does i feel his eyes on me until he leaves us to decide what we would like to order ,the girls are talking about something im not sure what because i'm still stuck on the thought that rudy has feelings for me

Layls laci says breaking me out of my thoughts

"Yeah what's up" I say
"What are you thinking about?" bails says
"nothing don't worry" i shrug nonchalantly thankfully they don't push any further we're so talking about random things after ordering which thankfully it was a different waiter when Laci asks why I got so many toys and stuff for Maisie
"It's maisie's 2nd birthday in 4 months" I say happily
"Really she's 2 so soon" Madelyn says
"Yeah I still remember the day she was born god that was painful but it was worth it at the end of the day because I got my beautiful princess out of it" I say
"Yeah I still can't believe you managed that without rudy or your parents" bails says
"Me either it was super painful but I had nova with me but as soon as I saw mais all that pain disappeared" I say smiling

"I can't Imagine what that was like to actually give birth" Madelyn says once the food is placed on our table we thank the waitress and I take a photo before I begin eating

"It was painful but it's something i would do again in a heartbeat because I got Maisie out of it" I declare after finishing my first bite of food

"i wonder what the guys are doing with maisie" bails says laughing

"i would love to know i just hope their not feeding her lots of sweets or making her hyperactive" i say

"yeah they probably are doing that but I know Rudy's gonna be being responsible"Madelyn says

"Layls you said you had a boyfriend before you went to ibiza and got pregnant with Maisie" bails asks
"Yeah I did but let's just say it wasn't a healthy relationship it was more of a toxic one I mean I was a naive 16 year old girl when we started dating it was okay at first then he started being controlling and manipulative I thought it was okay so I didn't do anything about it until after I turned 17 he was pressuring me for sex and I said I wasn't ready he would call me names and stuff until one night me ,max and nova were at a party for my max started to hit on nova she turned him down and he went to kiss another girl right in front of my face that's where my relationship with max ended a few days before my trip to ibiza you guys know the rest from there" I shrug

"That asshole" Madelyn says I laugh slightly

We all finish our food and talk more before we pay the bill and start walking to the exit of the mall walking to where Mads parked her car, while were walking we start having a conversation
"I've missed these sort of days the last time I had one of these days I had a massive bump a that was just shopping for baby stuff" I say when Maddison asks if I had crazy pregnancy cravings which I tell her I wanted pickles and honey ,
"who does that" mads says which makes us all laugh
"You can blame my daughter for that" I say
No we can not have you seen that girls sad face" Laci  says
"Yeah we've all seen that especially when she wants pancakes" Madison says laughing ,
"Speaking of Maisie what are you doing for her birthday this year" Madelyn asks 

"I'm not too sure but it's a special one where it's her first one with her dad here for her birthday so I'm not too sure yet" I say
"How about we do a little gathering for her birthday with the cast and crew and nova and Dylan" Maddison asks me which I say I'll think on it because I truly will I feel like I've grown a family out of a day trip to the beach with my daughter which lead to a big revelation and a job