The coincidence | Rudy Pankow

23: realisation

𝐿𝒶𝓎𝓁𝒶'𝓈 𝒫.𝒪.𝒱

Our break comes to an end we all go our separate ways the guys and Carlacia go to they're trailers rudys taking Maisie with him ,me and the maddies go back to set to continue filming the next scene is one with Maddison and Madelyn where we're all eating watermelon together gossiping about boys we all get our new outfits on and have our hair and makeup done, Rudy's gonna be looking after Maisie in his trailer while the guys are who knows where, I'm not half as nervous about this scene as I was about the one with Rudy, i don't know if I was nervous because I have history with Rudy , well I say history my like a daughter with him, or the fact that I'm possibly catching feelings for him again, I still can't stop thinking about the way his lips felt on mine ,they're like the perfect fit ,the missing part to a puzzle a part I know will have to stay missing, in order for Maisie to have a father

Jonas breaks me out of my thoughts by telling us where we are meant to be standing which we do so, once We get in our places , the crew checks everything is in working order, not long after Jonas is calling action and were shooting the scene, we manage to do this scene in 3 takes because Maddie kept messing her lines up making me and Bailey laugh, we finally nailed it and I head towards Rudy's trailer to get Maisie I quietly open the door I see Maisie asleep on rudys chest Rudy is also asleep I smile at the sight in front of me I take a picture of them to post on my Instagram I decide to let them both sleep just as I'm posting the picture of them with the caption Daddy & daughter nap I laugh while I walk into my bathroom getting my normal clothes back on once I'm done I hang up my clothes on the hanger and walk out the bathroom I see rudys awake probably getting ready to shoot his scene
"Hey how was your scene?" Rudy ask me curiously "it went well thanks ru for doing this for me, and for looking after Maisie" I tell him meaning it I will always be grateful for the things he's done for me, I mean he's given me a child for goodness sake

"Layla how many times do I have to tell you Maisie is my daughter too, which means she's both of our responsibility" he says genuinely which makes my heart flutter those little moments like this makes me fall for him even more if that's even possible, this man is the definition of a gentleman "thanks ru" i tell him while walking towards the couch where a sleeping Maisie is laying "Layla my parents are coming here this weekend I wanted to ask you if you and mais would like to meet them" he says shyly which as soon as those words come out of his mouth I start to get nervous because they'll probably think I've ruined rudys life "yeah sure let me know when" i say plastering on a smile which I know he can tell it's fake because he says something that really makes me realise he's the most caring man ever made "don't worry Layls they'll love you both, I'm so glad your in my life and your my daughters mom" he says before he opens the door smiling as he walks out the door just as Maisie snuggles closer into me I wrap my arms around her and open instagram I scroll through it just as JD barges in the door

"Laylaaaaa warddddd" he says in a singsong voice which makes me chuckle
"What's up Daviss?" I ask when he sits down next to me the opposite side to where Maisie is laying, one thing about me and jd is that we are quite close I see him as my brother from another mother
"I wanna talk about yours and rudys scene earlier" he tells me wiggling his eye brows
Which makes me blush and look away "the is nothing to talk about" I say which makes him burst out laughing "why are you blushing if nothing happened then?" He says smugly I look at him and when I do I'm proved right to see he's smirking at me
"Okay maybe I'm feeling things I possibly shouldn't be feeling" I confess blushing even harder than I already was "I knew it when I was watching your scene earlier I knew you had feelings for him" he tells me like it was obvious maybe it was but Rudy obviously don't have any feelings for me, and of course we can't do anything about it anyway "it don't matter even if I do jd I can't do anything about it and he obviously don't feel the same way" I sigh running my hands through Maisie's light blonde locks of hair which coincidentally is the same colour as Rudy's my hair is a tiny bit darker
"How do you know he don't feel the same way?" Jonathan asks me curiously which makes me sigh before answering "isn't it obvious that he's not into me and he told me Ibiza that he only wanted a one night stand" I tell him the truth not expecting what he says next "Rudy told me when we started filming obx that he met this gorgeous girl in Ibiza, I asked him to tell me more he said he completely ruined any chance he had with you because he was never gonna see you again, to then a year later we find you on a beach in Charleston if that ain't fate i don't know what is, Rudy does have feelings for you Layla he's just way to stubborn to admit it."

That was a lot to process, Rudy used to talk about me after we slept together in Ibiza, when did he start having these feelings for me, did he like me from the beginning like I did him god this is a lot to process, that would make complete sense him wanting to talk to me on the beach, him wanting to not leave mine or Maisie's side I thought it was because he was scared to lose her maybe it was that too but It could have been because he has these feelings for me, either way it will unlikely happen anyway the isn't a actually possible without ruining our co-parent relationship

"How do you know he still feels this way?" I ask due to myself having no self control, you would have thought for a mom that I'd have more self control then this but nope not me
"Are you blind?" Jd asks me with a look of surprise on his face like I'm asking such a stupid question before continuing"have you not seen the way that man looks at you he has the look of pure love and adoration in his eyes whenever you enter the room"
As soon as he says that it makes me think back to all the times Rudy looked at me
"He does not look at me like that" I say so quiet I'm not even sure jd heard what I said but sure enough he did

"Layls he does you just might not see it not because it don't happen but because you don't want to see it" he tells me getting up bidding me goodbye because he has a scene to shoot with Rudy leaving me with a sleeping child and my own overwhelming thoughts, Rudy doesn't like me, he don't like me it's surely not even possible for him to like me right?