The coincidence | Rudy Pankow

22: lips of a goddess

𝑅𝓊𝒹𝓎'𝓈 𝒫.𝒪.𝒱

We go to set which is the kitchen in the chateau my character Jj is meant to be just hanging out at the chateau alone when Sarahs sister Juliette arrives expecting to hangout with the Pouges but what she doesn't realise is that the only person in the chateau is jj... the guy who acts like he can't stand Juliette when in reality he's got a massive crush on her, when little does Jj know that Juliette has thought the same thing about him but she thought he couldn't stand her

I'm not the type of guy to usually feel nervous or anxious but my brains in over drive right now I'm overthinking every possible situation that could happen when I actually kiss Layla in this scene, what's gonna happen after I don't even think she feels the same way about me to how I feel about her... I've never been so confused about my feelings before but this is one situation where I'm really confused because it's not just us that could get hurt if we started something or if I told her how I am feeling, it's Maisie who could also get hurt in the long run I mean I've literally only just met Maisie, she's my daughter id put her before anybody,but at the same time I felt this way in Ibiza two years ago when I was with Layla knowing that I can't do anything about it is scary,

We're now about to shoot a scene for episode 6 jonas said that it's the scene John b and Sarah are back in obx which is the scene that jj finally tells Juliette how he feels about her and they kiss

Jonas is explaining the scene to us and I notice that Layla was in her own nervous thoughts probably over analysing everything about this the good and the bad probably overthinking how she probably thinks that she'll ruin this for everyone when I know differently I know that the fans will love her

"Layls" I say sounding concerned breaking her out of her own thoughts she looks at me and Jonas who was explaining the scene
"Sorry i didn't catch that" she tells him professionally as she looks over to the cast and Maisie who's still in Madelyns arms they look at her and smile im lousy standing next to her looking at her i can tell that shes nervous

"Well we can start of with just the dialogue and kiss scenes as it's only your first day and your probably nervous" Jonas declares thinking he's easing the situation when in reality shes nervous for a complete different reason to why I'm nervous

I'm nervous because I'm going to kiss the mother of my child, the girl I have feelings for

While shes nervous for a completely different reason she's nervous cause she's never acted in anything except school plays she's nervous of something that's she thinks she's gonna ruin

"Okay" me and Layla both say in unison as i get in my place which is sitting on the couch of the chateau while Laylas placed outside the chateau on the path way the makeup crew do the finishing touches and make sure we're already for the scene

that is until Jonas calls action Layla walks over to the chateau and knocks on the door like she's meant to when I don't open the door , she Just walk in where shes acting shocked that I'm here like she meant to
"jj hey where's the others " she questions curiously walking into the kitchen where she fills up a glass of water she turns around to see that i have followed her in there  like jj was supposed to "well pope and kie are at haywards John b and Sarah are god knows where they are probably hooking up somewhere" i say nonchalantly walking over to the fridge which is next to the sink she's currently standing by I'm standing so close to her that I feel her body heat radiating off of her

"Oh okay I thought we were all hanging out today" she asks curiously as I turn to look at her as Jj who's meant to have the look of lust in his eyes which I'm not actually acting when I look at her