Beautiful Liar( hyunhojilix)

Chapter 19

Felix's pov
I watched the sleeping boy next to me, what the hell did I do last night...i used him...i used his feelings for me just to make myself feel better...he trusted me...he confessed his feelings yet I used him...i used my best friend...
I took a deep breath getting up slowly, I feel so guilty...like I did last year...yet I choose to act like nothing had happened...i acted like I did not sleep with my best friend's boyfriend...i did not think that would happen...it just did...i rubbed my forehead thinking about that night.

Flashback
It is been two months since I kissed han and  more than a week since I confessed my feelings for minho hyung...he was been ignoring me since...he is leaving to his grandparents' house tomorrow and I did not get to say goodbye to him...i have no idea how long he will stay there...i am going to miss him.
I was watching his room from my window, he looked like he was getting ready...han was there too...i feel like some kind of stalker watching them from here...this is so wrong.
I froze when I locked eyes with the older, it seemed like he told han that I was there which made him look toward my direction.
I waved my hand awkwardly before I closed the curtains falling on my bed...he must hate me right now...I kissed his boyfriend and him...and I confessed...i am so stupid...what did I expect...he will leave Han for me...the love of his life for me...it hurts so much...i feel bad that I feel like this toward him...i know both boys love each other and care deeply for one another...i am just an outsider.

Yet I find myself hoping that minho hyung will choose me...it is a hope...a dream...a wish...
A knock on my door cut my thoughts off" come in" I said standing up, I thought it is going to be jihyo or one of the maids since there is no way that my parents would be here at this hour.
"hyung"I said with wide mouth as the door was opened revealing the older.
"felix" he said closing the door behind him before he start walking toward me, I gulped looking at him...i feel so nervous right now...he did not talk to me since last Sunday...and he was angry at me for two months..." you know I am leaving tomorrow "he added making me nod.
"han told me to come here and make things right between us...i wanted to tell you that I am not mad at you anymore"he said taking me off guard.

"hyung, I am sorry for what I did...all of it...it was a mistake...forget about what I said to you...and for kissing han...i was just drunk and..."
"I said it is fine" he cut me off,  he looked kind of weird tonight..."you said you like me right"he added walking closer...he was inches away from me...i could feel his breath hitting my face...whenever I am close to him I feel like I am under some kind of a spell...my brain just stop working...all I see is him...all I want is him...i have no idea how did he gain this much power over me?
"i...don't..."
"yes or no felix" he cut me off as he caressed my cheek with his thumb.
"I do" I answered leaning on his touch.
" splendid " he said with a wide smile before he kissed me.
End of flashback.

I have no idea what happened after that as he pulled me into a kiss pushing me onto the bed...my brain yelled at me to stop...to tell me that is wrong....but I did not..That night I broke my friend's trust, the next morning he was not there when I woke up...he left...i was confused...scared and disgusted from what I did...until i made my decision to just forget about it...han was acting normal with me and that made me so guilty, but thinking about it now he always knew...it took minho hyung a month to come back from his trip...and we didn't have time to talk things out since he was gone after it...
I felt a tear escape my eye before they start streaming down my cheeks...i miss him...i know he was not perfect...i know that he did a lot of messed up things but I loved him...i still do.

"don't tell me you are crying because you regret last night" I looked toward han who just woke up rubbing his eyes.
"you said that minho hyung told you about us...when?" I asked.
"felix" he said taking a deep breath "it was my idea...i told minho hyung to sleep with you" he added making me freeze.
"what?" I said not believing my ears.
" you already had feelings for him and he felt attracted to you...i thought if you get close...i will have my chance with you when time comes..."
"so you made a plan to trick me" I cut him off feelings pissed...i thought minho hyung told him after...but it was his plan all along.
"felix listen to me please...i really do care about you"he said taking my hand" I knew you won't feel the same...and I wanted us to work...getting you and minho hyung together was the first step...we were planning to tell you after he comes back..."he added.