Beautiful Liar( hyunhojilix)

Chapter 20

Han's pov
I feel like shit...i missed my therapy session last night... I could not even leave my bed...today is his disappearance anniversary....exactly a year since he went missing...how is it possible for someone to just disappear like this?

Flashback
"hanie" minho hyung said laying on my chest.
"yes love" I replied rubbing his hair.
" am I a bad person?" he asked making me freeze.
"how so?" I said swallowing hard.
"don't worry about it" he said getting up.
" we are meeting the boys today...come on get ready" he added.
"hyung..."
"come on...i am waiting for you in the shower" he cut me off giving me a wink before he entered the bathroom.
I was about to follow him but a knock on the door stopped me.
"jisung" my mom said making me roll my eyes coupe of months ago I found out about what she is doing to my father and she can't just stop hovering around me...i can't even look at my father's eyes...how I am going to tell him something like that? It will destroy him...and our life....

"what do you want?" I asked after I opened the door.
"you can't keep treating me like this I am your mom" she said making me sighed...i swear this woman is crazy." who is inside?" she added looking toward the bathroom as the sound of the shower echoed throughout the place.
"why do you care?" I said with a raised eyebrow.
" you need to lean some manners...does that boyfriend of yours live here now? I don't care that you are dating but he is not allowed..."
" he is staying here for as long as he wants...now leave" I cut her off closing the door on her...god she pissed me off...
I ignored her yells entering the shower" what took you too long?" minho hyung asked pulling me closer.

"my mom" I said with a big sigh.
"she did not tell your father yet" he said caressing my hand.
"no, and it is getting hard to deal with hyung...i can't even face him...i feel guilty hiding it..."
"then don't "he cut me off making my eyes widen" if you are feeling bad then tell him" he added.
"it is not that simple hyung" I said making him frown.
"look I can't force you to tell him but he deserves to know...take your time but remember you are not being fair to him by hiding it" he answered making me nod.
"now..." he added with a wide smirk, I chuckled pulling him into a kiss...
End of flashback

It is been more than a year since that day and still didn't say anything to my father...i am a coward, as much as I hate my mom right now I know that if my father finds out our family will fall apart and that's the last thing I need right now...
I heard my door being opened but I did not bother looking at whoever come...i closed my eyes acting asleep.
My breath hitched when I felt myself being pulled into a back hug, this touch.. This scent...it feels so familiar...
"Felix"I murmured making him hum.
"why are you here?" I added.
"to check on you" he replied kissing my neck.
"stop" I whispered.
" I am sorry" he said pulling way...i felt cold without his touch...

"you ignored me the past couple of days now you are here...what do you want from me?" I asked, he didn't talk to me for three days now since he thought I made his precious hyunjin cry.
"I thought you needed someone...today is..."
"I know what today is felix" I yelled facing him" but I don't need you just for one day...i need you every day...and I hurt that I know that it won't happen"I added.
"han...i...."
"you love hyunjin, we are past that. I know I said that I am okay with this so don't worry about it" I cut him off.
"jisung, I don't know what I want...i hate seeing you like this...i can't even sleep at night thinking that I am putting you in so much more pain than you are already feeling...but I can't erase my feelings for hyunjin" he replied with a broken voice looking down at his lap.

I have no idea how he become so obsessed with hyunjin in just couple of weeks...i swear it is like he is under kind of a spell or something...
" I choose to sleep with you and I need to face the consequences " he said taking a deep breath.
"you know I care about you a lot right forgive me...it won't happen again" he said squeezing my hand...i know but that is not enough for me...i want you to be fully mine...but if this is all I could have so be it.
"felix"I said making him blink at me confused" I want you...and if you can't commit to me emotionally I want as to continue being friends with benefits" I added making him freeze.
"han no..."
"listen to me...I know that I asked you to stop sleeping around and you already did it...M send me a text about it...it will benefit the both of us...i don't expect from you any kind of feelings in return...i just want you to be by my side" I cut him off making him frown.