THE ART OF SITUATIONSHIP (18+) (soc)

Chapter 23

I feel overwhelmed.

I feel exhausted.

Tired. Numb.

I feel nothing.

I feel Xavier's hand on the lower part of my abdomen. I am feeling his breathing on my nape. I shut my eyes closed as I remembered the scenes last night. I slowly take off hai arms that was encircling my body and slowly got up my self on the bed, I heard him move.

"Baby?"

"Let's not fight again, hmm? Di ko kaya." I heard him murmured half asleep.

"We're not still okay Xav." I said. Hindi porket umungol ako kagabi ay okay na kami.

"Sorry baby for forcing you. I should've do that" he tugged me more. Pulling me in his side. Are we cuddling? No we're not. This is not cuddling, it is purely a physical touch.
"Hindi na."

"Bitaw." I coldly said.

"Ayoko." He locked me in his arms.

"Bitaw na Xav. You're suffocating me." I groaned.

"Sorry na huh. Please." He said full of regret and remorse.

"I shouldn't have forced you."

"Stop." The only word I uttered. Yes, sinabi Kong ayoko, but part of me was saying that he didn't forcefully have sex with me. He didn't force himself on me.

"Kadie." He frustratedly say my name. I slowly chuckled. He look confused.

"Stop tugging me in bed. And cook me a breakfast, now." I ordered.

"Hindi ka na galit?" He carefully asked. I just look at him with my stoic face.

"Ayy sorry. Aye... What d'you want master?" Mabilis na saad niya bago ako bitawan.

"Egg? Bacon? Name it." Bumabawi talaga siya sa akin huh. Actually, wala na naman yun sa akin eh. If he's saying na nag-usap lang sila ni Yna, edi nag-usap lang. Ang bilis kung magalit at ang bilis ring mapawi ito. I don't hold grudges.  My life is complicated already to complicate it more.

Right now, I'm planning to tell him, what's really the matter why I acted that way. It was afternoon already and we're getting some fresh air in the veranda.

"Xav?"

"Hmm?"

"If I told you about my problem, about why I acted that way, would you listen?" I asked hoping.

"Yes, of course. I'm all ears, baby." He became attentive the moment I inquired.

I nodded twice before opening my page to him. "My parents have divorced." I look at his reaction, I don't see any reaction but concern, concerned about me.

He didn't give any comments so I continued. He is just there, staring at me. "Actually, matagal na silang hiwalay, pero ang sakit no? Ang sakit na masira ang pamilya." I wiped the tear that escaped from my left eye.

He didn't say anything, he was just there, sitting across me, looking at me, like he supports me. I needed that.

"Ikaw? Anong problema mo, bukod sakin Xav?" I said ng makabawi sa pagiging emotionally unstable, I chuckled.

"Just don't call me..." My eyebrows creased.

"... bastard." "Don't call me that again, just please. I had enough already." I saw sadness, pity, and ache in his eyes.

"Xav..." I don't know what to say but feel sorry. I understand now. Idea came rushing into me.

"Don't pity me, Kadie"  he was looking at me sternly.